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Time to take a real look in the mirror.

Well, starting again, have to do all the hard work again, not happy with myself.

I get into some delusional state where I think that it doesn't matter if I gain back all the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I ignore mirrors and buying clothes, thinking that if I don't look too hard at myself, no one will see me. I start avoiding social situations, wondering when my husband will get tired of me being so fat and lazy, and I yell at my kids for innocently telling me, "Mom, you ...
Well, starting again, have to do all the hard work again, not happy with myself.

I get into some delusional state where I think that it doesn't matter if I gain back all the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I ignore mirrors and buying clothes, thinking that if I don't look too hard at myself, no one will see me. I start avoiding social situations, wondering when my husband will get tired of me being so fat and lazy, and I yell at my kids for innocently telling me, "Mom, you have a big butt!"

I am tired of hiding behind my kids in our family photos, of lying awake at night hating myself, and of feeling bad about everything I eat (which somehow makes me eat more).

I am doing this again, I am doing it right, and I am committed. I am so scared that I will give up again, but I can't let that fear stop me anymore. I am going to lose weight, I am going to be thinner, I can do this!
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Member Since: 9/4/2009

My Goals:
I don't want to be a fat mom!


My Program:
I am eating small, healthy meals and logging my food.

I am also working out 5x per week, even if it just a 20 minute video.

Personal Information:
3 kids
great hubby

Other Information:
I am quite the nerd, I love to read and play online games, so exercising and being active will be a new focus for me.

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JULESANA8818
9/29/2009 10:04:49 PM

Thnaks for the goodie. We're big recyclers in my house.



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FDOODLES
9/28/2009 1:16:52 PM

Thanks for stopping by my page (but I'm not the Done Girl of the day, I'm just the one who sends out the announcement).
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Your baby girl is beautiful - congrats new mommy!
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Frankie



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JULESANA8818
9/27/2009 12:38:08 AM

Thanks for your comment, it made me smile, I'm also A mom of 3. And Pride and prejudice is a favorite of mine too. Especially this version. So romantic. I'll add you as a friend



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LORIPOWERS5791
9/26/2009 9:00:18 AM

Today I was lucky and my kids slept til 7 am. My daughter has been sleeping all night in her own bed for about a week now! Yah!. Now if I can just get my son to do the same. Hope you Saturday morning was restfull and hope your eyes remained closed for at least 5 hrs in a row. emoticon



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PETALSOFBLUE
9/25/2009 10:48:56 AM

Oh yes, soy milk is teh yum! I don't even get the flavored stuff and it's still yum.

Thanks for visiting my blog :) :) :)



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