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Time to take a real look in the mirror.

Well, starting again, have to do all the hard work again, not happy with myself.

I get into some delusional state where I think that it doesn't matter if I gain back all the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I ignore mirrors and buying clothes, thinking that if I don't look too hard at myself, no one will see me. I start avoiding social situations, wondering when my husband will get tired of me being so fat and lazy, and I yell at my kids for innocently telling me, "Mom, you ...
Well, starting again, have to do all the hard work again, not happy with myself.

I get into some delusional state where I think that it doesn't matter if I gain back all the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I ignore mirrors and buying clothes, thinking that if I don't look too hard at myself, no one will see me. I start avoiding social situations, wondering when my husband will get tired of me being so fat and lazy, and I yell at my kids for innocently telling me, "Mom, you have a big butt!"

I am tired of hiding behind my kids in our family photos, of lying awake at night hating myself, and of feeling bad about everything I eat (which somehow makes me eat more).

I am doing this again, I am doing it right, and I am committed. I am so scared that I will give up again, but I can't let that fear stop me anymore. I am going to lose weight, I am going to be thinner, I can do this!
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Member Since: 9/4/2009

My Goals:
I don't want to be a fat mom!


My Program:
I am eating small, healthy meals and logging my food.

I am also working out 5x per week, even if it just a 20 minute video.

Personal Information:
3 kids
great hubby

Other Information:
I am quite the nerd, I love to read and play online games, so exercising and being active will be a new focus for me.

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JULESANA8818
11/16/2009 5:44:45 PM

18 lb. lost. Great job. Proud of you. You go girl!!!



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ELENAS_SEXY_MOM
10/18/2009 11:51:29 AM

Thanks. I try to make a concious effort to be positive. Change stresses me out. When I am down though, I am REALLY down and negative so it's important I continuously work at being positive. Hope your weekend is goign well. :)



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ELENAS_SEXY_MOM
10/11/2009 3:34:51 PM

Congrats on your 10 pounds! Keep up the good work!



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LORIPOWERS5791
10/6/2009 9:44:27 PM

Let me know how the WII Fit works out! I have been wanting to try it out but don't want to buy it if it is a waste of money!!!



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STACERSNAPE
10/6/2009 2:51:05 PM

Thank you so much for the positive comment on my blog. Your little girl is beautiful! Good luck on your journey.



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