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Time to take a real look in the mirror.

Well, starting again, have to do all the hard work again, not happy with myself.

I get into some delusional state where I think that it doesn't matter if I gain back all the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I ignore mirrors and buying clothes, thinking that if I don't look too hard at myself, no one will see me. I start avoiding social situations, wondering when my husband will get tired of me being so fat and lazy, and I yell at my kids for innocently telling me, "Mom, you ...
Well, starting again, have to do all the hard work again, not happy with myself.

I get into some delusional state where I think that it doesn't matter if I gain back all the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I ignore mirrors and buying clothes, thinking that if I don't look too hard at myself, no one will see me. I start avoiding social situations, wondering when my husband will get tired of me being so fat and lazy, and I yell at my kids for innocently telling me, "Mom, you have a big butt!"

I am tired of hiding behind my kids in our family photos, of lying awake at night hating myself, and of feeling bad about everything I eat (which somehow makes me eat more).

I am doing this again, I am doing it right, and I am committed. I am so scared that I will give up again, but I can't let that fear stop me anymore. I am going to lose weight, I am going to be thinner, I can do this!
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Member Since: 9/4/2009

My Goals:
I don't want to be a fat mom!


My Program:
I am eating small, healthy meals and logging my food.

I am also working out 5x per week, even if it just a 20 minute video.

Personal Information:
3 kids
great hubby

Other Information:
I am quite the nerd, I love to read and play online games, so exercising and being active will be a new focus for me.

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DONDAIN
6/11/2013 9:43:01 PM

Just stopping by to say HI and give you a hug. emoticon



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NOTABOUTHEFACE
7/28/2010 1:23:42 PM

Stopping by to remind you that you're beautiful, you're worth the journey and deserve every dream you have to come true! Happy Hump Day!



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JULESANA8818
1/23/2010 5:12:37 PM

Hey, where did you go? Are you trapped under something heavy?????



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CLCIPS
1/14/2010 1:36:16 PM

Happy New Year SparkFriend!!



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ELENAS_SEXY_MOM
11/24/2009 8:10:43 AM

Thanks! You too!



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