9-12, staying steady at 195 lbs, eager to get started with new ventures.
Dec 12-2009 About 300 lbs or more
Enjoying a musical moment 9-15-12. Still holding steady at 195 lbs.
MIZCATHI is a SparkPeople Motivator!
Sep 11, 2014
I'm back again, this time with focus and no promises - except one - to take care of myself. I've been going through a lasting depression, and one I'm taking baby steps to climb back to the woman I am under this cloud.
5 weeks ago I faced my significant weight gain over the last year+ and decided to start "slow" with new habits. I've been back to the gym 5 mornings a week for 5 weeks and have not missed a day. I already feel muscles and strength returning!
I started cutting out sugar and drinking wine except for rare social occasions. I take a shower when I get home from the gym. (Hygiene was beginning to take a nosedive, yikes!).
I also gave up on looking for a job (BAD) BUT did start my own business. I turned our passion for Vintage Collectibles, "Picking", Yard Sales, etc and started 2 online shops. I have not replaced my income yet, however the business is growing month to month and I believe I can make this work. My goal is to replace my former income by the end of 2015.
Working from home has it's challenges - I am a social person and I miss having those interactions. Yet, I LOVE being my own boss. I tend to get very obsessive, so it's tough getting back to healthy habits while I learn what it takes to run a business again.
Our son is finally in a treatment program for TBI and living on campus. He has good times and bad. It's tough learning to trust and let go of his care. He's been there since July 2 and according to him, he'll ge "graduating" at the end of November of this year. Only time will tell if he will be able to work again, but that is his hope.
In 2013 I lost my "new friends", such as they were. I was heartbroken and rejected. My sister moved from FL to TX, and last month she bought a home in our neighborhood. Is this happy? Not quite. I'm relearning where I came from and having a difficult time adjusting to the new family dynamics.
I am going to get the body back that I was beginning to love and accept. Gaining weight as a result of depression has been demoralizing and I find myself daydreaming about the woman I was becoming comfortable and happy with after losing 120 lbs. I have regained at least half of what I lost.
Here I am, getting back on my feet, taking baby steps. Today I begin logging food and exercise and water.
It's a new beginning.
February 26, 2013
I have fallen but only I can get myself BACK UP. I lost my job June 1 2012 and I lost my Mom, after a long illness, on Dec 4 2012. I've regained 20+ lbs since October 2012 and only I can reverse that trend. It begins today!
I do know it's time to start loving myself more than anyone else - that includes my offspring and my husband of 35 years. Because I can't take care of any of them successfully without first caring for myself. I know this, but I keep back sliding on this one issue.
I also know I get what I focus on. I've proven that to myself at least a few times and somehow I seemingly forget this, too. If I focus on health and fitness I'll stand a much better chance of becoming healthier and fitter. I want to be at my goal weight of 150, my high school weight. I want it to happen this year. It will happen if I focus on it, so that's what I'm doing.
I want a job, and it feels closer. But more than that, I want to be a strong and creative person. To do that I must do what needs to be done to get there.
So I'm doing it. Let's see where this gets me.
At the beginning of 2012 I am 25 lbs lighter than where I was last year at this time, and 110 lbs less than I was at the beginning of the journey I took on again a few years ago. Yet, I am also 10 lbs heavier than I was 6 months ago, when I took a new job at a Renewable Energy Development firm. The stresses and challenges of the past couple of years finally wore me down a bit, and I found myself using food for comfort. Lately I've realized that I tend to step away from the fear of failure, and I am ready to jump off that course. It's time to put my hopes and dreams into action. My intention to to finally and once and for all reach a goal weight of 150 lbs and begin to define myself as an Artist. Project Me is a worthwhile enterprise, and I intend to prove to myself that I am worthy of all the effort I can pour into my talents and dreams.
_________________As of this morning I weigh 194.4, 115.6 lbs less than my starting weight of 310 lbs. At 57, I am happy with how my body responds, and more determined than ever to reach my goal weight. At this point it is set at 150 lbs, and as I discover that perhaps I'm not "big boned" after all, I may renegotiate that goal weight as I get closer. I am amazed to discover that I don't have to "starve" on "white knuckle" it to lose weight. I like the food I eat and the exercise I do, but more importantly, I am thrilled by my energy levels and how fun it is to shop and dress up. In 20 more pounds, I will be at 29.9% BMI - a place I haven't been in at least 3 decades! Two years ago, I was sick and tired and my Dr was preparing me to accept that I would have to start insulin to get my Diabetes under control. Today I am in Diabetes remission, and feel better than I have in years.
This is an old cliche, but seriously folks, if I can do this, you can do this. And it doesn't have to be hard. Truthfully, this has been an amazing experience, and I am thankful that a "lifestyle change" is indeed possible, and a happy place to be.
In Feb '08 I weighed in at my new Dr's at 310 lbs. I was crushed, both in spirit and physically. The Diabetes I'd learned about a few years earlier was out of control, my knees ached, and most of the time I found myself using my deceased Dad's cane to hobble around. Just going to the grocery store was a physical feat. I vowed to live on that day, and after a few false starts and stops, I am now weighing in at 213 lbs, 97 of body fat gone. I am 56 years old, soon to be 57 in 2 months, and though I regret the many years I've spent fat and unhappy because of it, I will not regret another moment.
My goal is to weigh 150 lbs by the close of 2011. As of March 2011 I have 63 lbs to go, and I am determined to FOCUS on my health, fitness goals, and to eat clean and balanced. No more sitting on the sidelines and wishing I was somebody else! I am determined to be the person I've always felt inside - fit, a healthy weight, energetic, creative, and calmly centered.
Once and for all, I will get what I FOCUS on!
My 5th Generation Weight Loss Journey:
Feb '08: 310 lbs
March '12: 193 lbs
2012 Goal: Get to my goal weight of 150 lbs.
1st goal '12: 173 lbs by 5-4-12 - AND a new bike!
2nd goal Oct 8th 2012: To be at my goal weight of 150 by my 35th wedding aniversary.
A Heart Condition scare has been put to bed with the results of a battery of tests - "All clear", but I do have an enlarged heart that the DR feels will take care of itself if I keep doing the "right stuff". High Blood Pressure meds have been reduced, and A1C is a stable 5.9% now. I am looking forward to being off all meds with continued weight loss.
I want to move with ease and garden, bike, swim, hike and attend events with strength and vitality.
Give an overview of what you are doing to meet your goals.
I am taking the necessary "baby steps" to be who I visualize. In other words - get off my butt and dig flower beds, clean the house, exercise the dogs, and exercise my body and mind.
Eat lean and clean, enjoying an occassional treat, but saying "no" to high sugar, high processed foods and corn syrup. "No" to unhealthy fast foods and "Yes" to nourishment and mood boosters.
Married 35 years Oct 2012 to a loyal and wonderful guy. Two grown kids;son is 33 and recovering from a craniotomy, on SSDI and finally on his own again. Daughter, soon to be 32 and married without children (yet), working and studying towards a BA and living thousands of miles away! I miss her.
We took a giant leap of faith 5 years ago and bought a home in Austin, TX relocating from the Washington DC area. Our lives were put on hold when our ill son came to live with us 6 months later... wouldn't have it any other way, but it's time for all of us to heal and live our our dreams. I was determined at the time of the move to enter the healthiest and happiest time of my life, and that is what I intend to do! Enough stress and trauma - I am thankful, grateful, and ready!
The price of ACTION is colossal!
| current weight: 215.0