I am not very good at talking about myself, but i will try.
I am 32 and a single mom of 1 (son 11) ever since i was a child i was always on the larger side, but over the last 11 years it has gotten out of control. I spend so much time dealing with my son and his disability, that i forgot about myself along the way. Now i think that its time to start working on myself and get control back on my issues. Motivation and support is my only problem, i dont have the support at home to keep me ...

I am not very good at talking about myself, but i will try.
I am 32 and a single mom of 1 (son 11) ever since i was a child i was always on the larger side, but over the last 11 years it has gotten out of control. I spend so much time dealing with my son and his disability, that i forgot about myself along the way. Now i think that its time to start working on myself and get control back on my issues. Motivation and support is my only problem, i dont have the support at home to keep me going, I hope coming here i can find people dealing with the same issues and form bonds with people so we can support and motivate each other.

My biggest issue is starting to eat, i gained all this weight by not taking care of my body, not eating and drinking nothing but Pepsi, bad i know but ever since i was a teen eating has been the last thing on my mind, sadly i always thought that not eating would actually help me, turns out it back fired hard core lol. what calories i do get is bad calories from Pepsi which also has loads of sugar, another thing i don't need,

Growing up my mom had issues with substance abuse and always spent our money on that instead of food and what we needed, so i learnt to not eat and fill that hunger with pop. My biggest eye opener was when my Doctor told me i had high cholesterol, I was in shock since my diet didn't consist of food, i cried so hard that day, and it wasn't till i actually sat down with him and explained what i had been doing, did a realize where i went wrong. Don't get me wrong i do eat, once a day but with the calories from the pop and the poor choice in the one meal i do eat has been doing more harm then good.

I need to stop, i need to learn how to eat proper and cut out the nasty habit of Pepsi, before its to late, regain control and start living my life again.

I hate the way i look and what i have become, i have anxiety attacks when i go out because i feel like everyone is staring at me and judging me, without getting to know me. I stay home where i am comfortable and most of my friends are online friends because they get to know me and like me for who i am on the inside, instead of judging me for what i look like on the outside.

I am so tired of what i have become, and it depresses me every day, Now is my time and i am taking back my life, i hope to shed the weight by my brithday Dec 2012, and with Spark and the plan here its in reach, i just need to grab for it, i know it can be done, if you dream it you can do it.
Wish me Luck, i hope to be happy in my next full body photo

Starting weight April 11 2011: 315

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