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Note: changed my name after about one month of my active life as a sparkler. I joined SP in 2010, gave myself a name that in my language means "fatty", never blogged, participated or commented... I failed. Now, I am regaining power over who and what I am, because I can still be what I might have been!

Who am I?

I am a hero to be. I am joining the army of sparkers in order to take control. I am done being a victim of my own destructive habits. I've never been able to be on one diet at a time, cause there's just to little food there. 3 or 4 at once? That's more like it:) No, seriously I am here for a lifestyle change. I want to sculpt my body and my life and I have my tools at hand - determination, vision, runner's shoes, clear goals, dumbbells, ambition, etc.

Who am I?

I am a 26 year old from a teenie tiny country you might even haven't heard of. Yes, I do feel like an alien in this almost-all-american-or-at-least-english- speaking community. Yes, Mr. Sting, thank you for reminding me that - I am a legal alien. I know I belong here, because we all have this one thing in common - we struggle with our weight problems (may it be one way or another).

I have been thick all my life (not fat, thick). Certainly, had my own body image issues in my teens (good old days of hours and hours of staring at myself in the mirror, just to "discover" big nose, small eyes, crooked teeth, etc). Despite my intense effort to look for "body waster", I lived an active life, was a dancer and traveled the Europe with my group.

Everything got out of hand in university where I studied art history and criticism. Oh, boho life: sleepless nights, too much coffee, cigarettes and alcohol. After graduation I started working in theatre in PR and international projects (stress, junk food, traveling, staying in hotels, eating at night, smoking 2 packs a day, no sleep, parties as part of the job etc.). After theatre I worked at a publishing house as the head of a publishing department (again, stress, lack of rest, no exercise, cigarettes, alcohol, which became my daily bread, especially in the evenings, as it was the only way to calm my thoughts and fall asleep). Bad, bad girl. That's why your body suffers. That's why your body looks the way it looks.

I guess it was photos of mine that made me think of what (not who - what) I've become. I wanted to change, I desperately needed change. I quit my office job and now I work at home. Now I have time to rethink, to exercise. To sculpt my body and my life, to carve a (beep) piece of art out of this rock I am now.

And no. I am not doing it for my children (because I have none and have no intention to have any), my hubby (because I have none and have no intention to have one) or anybody/anything else, besides me and my body. I know I am intelligent, brilliant, funny, charismatic, artistic, brave, ambitious etc. It's about time my exterior is worth my interior.

Let the rest of my life begin now!

Member Since: 6/3/2009

Fitness Minutes: 8,915

My Goals:
quit smoking - DONE!

lose 66 lbs and reach my goal weight (I am now 216)

My Program:
Walking/running + jumprope (love it love it love it!)

Strength training:
60 min EVERYDAY (upper-lower-core), except 1 day (perhaps Sunday?)

Loads of water!

Tracking food and try to stay in my range (at least most of the time I succeed)

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    I'm Natalie one of the co-Leaders of the C25K- Running for Beginners Team. I just wanted to welcome you and invite you to participate on the boards and in the challenges. If you have any questions feel free to post on the boards or shoot me a SparkMail. Happy running!
    2123 days ago
    Thanks for the blog comment. :) I appreciate it! How are you doing?
    2127 days ago
    The lesson was great and terrifying at the same time. He was starting at me so when I thought I was going to die I couldn't lower my resistance because I knew he was judging me lolol. I hope you feel better soon. Being sick is no fun.
    2147 days ago
    Thank you!! Thank you!!! Thank you!!! I am so excited. :) How are you? Hope you're feeling better.
    2148 days ago
    Thanks! I am excited. I created my goal to be "eat 2 servings of veggies each day" I eat fruit all the time but veggies always sneak out of my life. So I am going to make sure that 2/3 of my meals are accompanied by veggies. Hope you're doing well!
    2150 days ago
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