I am a SAHM with a beautiful little boy...

I am SO DONE because I want to be there for him and my amazing hubby in the long run.

I am DONE being so very tired of being heavy and struggling to feel good about myself. I am DONE being ashamed of myself. I am DONE waiting to live my life "until I am skinny again".

I started Spark in 2007 at 222 lbs. I started 2008 at 230 lbs. YIKES! I obviously wasn't being very successful at this! I went on a very ...

I am a SAHM with a beautiful little boy...

I am SO DONE because I want to be there for him and my amazing hubby in the long run.

I am DONE being so very tired of being heavy and struggling to feel good about myself. I am DONE being ashamed of myself. I am DONE waiting to live my life "until I am skinny again".

I started Spark in 2007 at 222 lbs. I started 2008 at 230 lbs. YIKES! I obviously wasn't being very successful at this! I went on a very strict and green diet in January 2008 and lost 14 lbs. It was unmaintainable. I couldn't eat anything I wanted and I was BORED BORED BORED with food and so I started to "cheat a little bit"... and I then stalled completely for months and months and months. I didn't gain weight, but I couldn't really lose it either. I played with the same 5 lbs for about 6 months. I am now eating healthy... a wide variety of fruits and veggies, lots and lots of fruits and veggies, but with little "cheats" planned in to a healthy lifestyle.

I snapped a tendon in my leg in June 2008 and was forced to take a step back from exercise... which was good for me. It forced me to relax a little bit and I guess by taking a break, I must have jumpstarted my metabolism again! Because, in September, nearly 1 full year after starting Spark People, I lost weight again. And since then, I have been very slowly, but steadily losing! I have become a DONE GIRL! I am so very DONE!

Update: 6/18/2009
I decided a few months ago that things weren't progressing the way that I wanted them to. I hadn't lost any weight since Christmas. In fact, I had gained some of it back and crept back up to over 200 lbs. I knew that something had to change again. I decided that I needed to get back in touch with myself in ways that I haven't been in years. I started therapy. I started keeping a food journal instead of logging my food in the SP tracker. I found that the journal worked for me much better than the tracker, because I was much more honest with myself about what I was eating. (maybe that wasn't 3/4 cup of ice cream. It was only a half cup.) When I wasn't counting calories anymore, I started losing weight again. I started exercising more. I started being more honest about how much and the intensity of workout I was getting in. I joined Done Girls BLC. That has been a huge help for me. I have found that since I have something new to work on every week has helped me stay focused and more determined than ever. The weight is coming off and I am doing great. I like who I am becoming now... I like me! I like my goals and my dreams and I am embracing them. It is wonderful to be happy with myself for the first time in ages. And, you can see my collar bones now! I am thrilled with the way my upper body is changing. I have always had the most trouble though, with my lower body, and it is changing, slowly... but changing. I still have a long way to go there, but I am getting there. I am convinced that my new way of life will help me look the way I want to look within a few months. I know that I can do this. I know that I am DONE!

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