Thanks for your support on my blog. I really think I was just frustrated and needed to vent. I feel better today. It was therapeutic writing it out. I think I may e-mail the race coordinator with some suggestions. She may not be aware that she can get FREE bibs from Road ID for example. I am planning my own event and am trying to pull all of the very best things about the events I have attended into play at mine and avoid the things that were not so great. It was a learning experience, a good time for me, and a great cause.
As far as my friend...I am still not sure. I am going to attend a race (maybe two) this weekend without her. I will see how it goes and how I feel. I do want to do some things with her, just not all...and I want the things I do to be positive experiences. But I do love her and don't want to hurt her. I do think she was feeling guilty, her behaviour showed that. Hopefully she got an idea of how frustrating it was without me having to say too much...
Thanks for the encouraging comments on my blog. I was definitely having a bad day..but I think I'm over it now. I made it to the treadmill today and had a good burn which felt nice. I love the idea of making a "happy list"! It will help me to fill that void when my mind isn't in the right space. I have 2 dogs...Koda is almost 3yrs and is a Pointer x Hound mix. She had one of those sad faces and uses it to her advantage! Lucia (pronounced Loosha) will be 1 yr in may and is a collie x aussie mix. We named her after the island, St Lucia....we were married there in March :) But man oh man, she is such a terror! Eats everything....last week we came home and she had eaten a bag of lindor chocolates, the baseboard in the spare room and half a bottle of tylenol! No limits for that one. Hopefully once we get her fixed she will calm down a bit :) Have a great weekend, and thanks again! 1615 days ago
Eating can be such a difficult part...especially when you get to a point where you don't have a lot of excess weight to lose. When I think back to the beginning of all of this I exercised like half as much as I do now and ate more "bad stuff" I drank tons of diet soda, I ate a lot of processed foods...and yet I lost five pounds a week, seven pounds a week, four pounds a week...almost effortlessly. It slowed down in the summer time. I upped my fitness but enjoyed cook-out foods and lost of wine. By fall I seemed to really get it together on the food. I have come to accept that the weight is just going to come off a lot slower now. I struggle a lot with food at times. Especially with special occasions. I am doing alright this month. I had a bad week last week. I got to feeling sick and got down on myself and shut off the care switch for a few days. I feel more invigorated now, I had a good weekend and I thought through things and got my crap back in line. I am sure we will all have ups and downs. All you can do is keep going when you feel like stopping, pick yourself up when you fall down, and accept that you may have to hit re-start every once and a while. I find that the more good choices I make, the more I WANT to make. Maybe the exercising that you are loving will make it easier for you to love the right foods. Once the weather warms up here I tend to not be so crazy hungry and feel like getting outside and moving more. I am hoping that is the ticket. I hope you finish the month off with a bang! I plan on it! 1618 days ago