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I'm 35 years old. I've been fighting others, but mostly myself to prove a point. Except I'm losing my life.

I'm on 5 litres of oxygen 24/7. I use a bipap at night to sleep. I'm also having issues with anemia. I'm not absorbing the nutrients I need. I have had a blood transfusion in 2008 and in 2009 I recieved iron infusion treatments. For the rest of my life I will have to recieve monthly B12 injections, daily multi vitamin and 1000 mg of Vitamin D.

I don't have a job. I'm not married. I don't have any kids. So what's my purpose in life right? I've struggled with weight my entire life.

All I've ever wanted in life was to be happy. A chance to be like everyone else instead of being treated differently because of how I look,

I did undergo gastric bypass surgery in Jan 2003. I was over 700lbs when I had surgery. I spent 16 months away from home beginning June 2002. Two in the hospital then 6 in a nursing home for rehabilitation. Jan through March 2003 I had surgery. Spent 3 weeks on a ventilator till Feb 14th. The other 4 weeks were spent just helping me figure out how to use my legs to stand. Prior to surgery I was mobile but something happened the doctors said I developed something called ICU Neuropathy. Trust me when I say that it was painful even to the most lightest tender touch. I went back to the nursing home for rehabilitation till Sept 2003 before coming back home. I came home at 465lbs. I joined Ballys in 2005 and with the help of an amazing personal trainer was able to learn to walk again walker and hands free. Now fast forward to 2010. I'm at 586lbs as of Dec 2009. I need help. I need a friend.
I know when I have problems I don't like to deal with them. I just want to close my eyes and go to sleep. Ignore the situation all together. And run anywhere but focus attention on myself.

Member Since: 12/21/2009

Fitness Minutes: 90

My Goals:
Just to be healthy.
To not feel sad
To not be lonely
To be able to take care of myself
To not have to depend on anyone
To stop feeling disappointed and let down by people

My Program:
I don't have a program. Am trying to go at this alone. Not having very much success on my own.

Personal Information:
Originally from New Zealand. Was born in Wellington & grew up in Palmerston North. In June 1989 I went to Samoa with my grandma. In August I went to Hawaii with my grandma to meet up with my Mom & brother. Lived in Hawaii about 6 yrs before moving to Idaho. Stayed for 2 yrs then moved to Washington State where I've been ever since March 97.

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  • v CHELSITA98
    Reading the about you" section tears me up. Please let me know when you need to talk. It is easy for a lot of us to feel sorry for ourselves, but that is when we have to be there for each other. Nobody knows how we feel better than our teammates. You may not have a husband, or children, but you seem to have a lot of people on here that care about you. I felt an instant connection to you as I read your story. I hope you don't get sick of me checking on you. (((HUGS)))
    2458 days ago
  • v JACKIEB4
    Hi just checking to see how you are doing did you check out this weeks challenge on Challenges for Sparkers with Lots to Lose! it begins today. Today's chat room topic is phobias.

    2459 days ago
  • v JACKIEB4
    Good morning stopping by to see how you are doing? Hope you have a great day.
    2470 days ago
  • v JACKIEB4
    Hi we are on the same team together Challenges for Sparkers with Lots to Lose! Just wanted to see how you were doing hope all is well with you. Have a great weekend.
    2475 days ago
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