My new hairstyle. You can't see itin the pic, but the dark part is purple (burgundy) Dec 2008
Me in Colorado 2007
2003 My hubby and I on our way to his Law Enforcement Graduation. I'm so proud of him.
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Today I begin a new adventure. My journey begins...learning how to change my eating habits, cook healthy and lose the weight I need to. I'm running a race against life...My Dr says I only have about 5 years at most if I don't change my ways and lose the weight.
So, with terror in my eyes, panic in my heart and resolve that could crumble easily if I don't keep my eyes on the target, I begin my journey.
I'm 45 and at the beginning of my adventure weigh in at 359.4lbs, with a 5'7" frame and a BMI of 57.
I've been big my whole adult life. When i was younger I did every diet known to man and would lose about 50lbs then stop. i would get so discouraged i would stop the diet and of course put the weight back on with an added 5 or 10lbs.
My metabolism is so slow that the Dr put me in the hospital because he didn't believe me when I told him I couldn't lose weight. He said I was just lazy...so he puts me in the hospital, puts me on a 1000 calorie diet and I have to physical therapy everyday. I swear on my life I didn't cheat (although I would have stabbed someone for a burrito). At the end of 7 days I had gained 10lbs, the Dr. gave up and told me that I was meant to be heavy and washed his hands of me.
Skip ahead several years...now I'm 45, I have blood clots in my legs, Fibromyalgia, Diabetes and Diabetic Neuropathy in my legs, hands and hips and a few other maladies that make excercising a real pain.
This friday when we get paid I'm going to buy me some stretching resistant bands and while watching tv, excercise in my chair. I cant do alot on my legs, but I can darn well sit and work my upperbody and raise my heart rate.
To be quite honest, I'm scared to death...scared of so many things, like trying this and once again failing....or succeeding and dropping the 210 lbs I want/need to lose and knowing that it's going to age me by 10 years. If after all this I do manage to get the weight off, will my husband still want me? Afterall I'm gonna have flab hanging everywhere. He says he will and that he loves me no matter what size I am.....so somehow I have to believe in that...in him.
I could go on and on, but guess I'll save that for my blog. (grin)
I could use help from others and am willing to help others if I can.
Blessings, Light & Love;
lose 210 lbs in the next 2 years.
Learn to drink 8 glasses of water.
Learn that excercise isn't an evil thing.
Learn to be comfortable with my new body.
At the moment I don't have a "program" I guess.
I'm trying to learn to eat 4 small things a day instead of one fairly large meal. This isn't easy for me as I'm seldom hungry, although I'm hoping that my body will adjust to the new regiment and begin to be hungry when it's time to eat.
I'm also not on any excercise program, I'm just beginning, so my goal at the moment is to just do something that raises my heartrate and keeps it elevated for like 10 minutes twice a day.
My Name: 'Chelle
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I'm an ordained Minister, but not a Pastor.
I'm a Spiritualist and have learned and brought many things from different religions into my life. I guess as close as I would get to a religion is Wiccan.
I'm Cherokee Indian (almost full blodd) and love to learn the old ways of my people.
I'm married to the love of my life, a cop in our small Texas town. I'm so proud of him, I could bust buttons.
| current weight: 362.5