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You can't do what you've always done and expect a different result!!!

So here I am, at 37, with 38 creeping around the corner, finally realizing that somethings got to change. Something has to give, but my old ways just aren't cutting it anymore. It started with an eating disorder at age 11. It spiraled into a nasty depression into the teenage years and the eating disorder took over my adult life. Years of binging and purging, exercising till I sustained stress fractures, yet never being thin because I couldn't manage to purge as many calories as I took in. ...
So here I am, at 37, with 38 creeping around the corner, finally realizing that somethings got to change. Something has to give, but my old ways just aren't cutting it anymore. It started with an eating disorder at age 11. It spiraled into a nasty depression into the teenage years and the eating disorder took over my adult life. Years of binging and purging, exercising till I sustained stress fractures, yet never being thin because I couldn't manage to purge as many calories as I took in.

For years I have watched people in relationships gain weight, people getting dumped and becoming super thin. Funny thing is, I get single, I gain the weight, I find a great relationship, I get thin. Most people get complacent when in relationships thinking "I got the man, I don't have to be careful anymore"....I go the other way....I do whatever it takes to maintain it. When flying solo, I always feel like "why bother" and my weight creeps up.

Well, somehow, 2.5 years ago I managed to kick the whole "uh-oh....I over ate a few bites, the days done, I might as well eat it all." and realized...."oh...I over ate by 400 calories today...well it takes 3,500 calories to gain a lb....so it's no big deal." Then I realized, ok the other issue is, I am not going to gain a pound back from over eating a little, and I will probably still lose weight. Then the workouts started falling into place and I managed to take control of my obsession of food.

Then I dropped about 15 lbs and started to feel phenonmenal. It was a great summer because I felt so empowered....AND THEN...the days became shorter, the weather got colder and I developed this insatiable urge to eat and the workouts started disappearing....

To be continued......
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FIT-WHIT
9/29/2011 1:45:27 PM

Hahha oh wow, you're sweet! Thanks for your comment on my "blah-blog." I can't imagine trying to get up even an hour EARLIER than I do try now. ISH!

Oh, and I wish I could say I always eat exemplary, but I certainly DO NOT!! LOL! I will have to start asking myself "What would I want MADEINNYC to know I ate??" when I'm debating about stuffing my face silly. Trust me- it happens. Yikes. It's a decision (good or bad!) every day for sure!!!



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FIT-WHIT
9/25/2011 9:14:06 PM

THANK YOU for your sweet comment on my vlog! You made my night, what a doll!

I truly appreciate your kindness.

Whitney



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OFFDREA
8/29/2011 1:10:48 PM

Thanks for the comment on my blog! I agree with you, taking the food and then throwing it away does send the wrong message. Not to mention it wastes food!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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MARLIE13
3/24/2011 11:38:02 PM

Thank you so much for the encouraging comment you left on my blog. It was very much appreciated!



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LAROSEBAUGH
11/15/2010 5:47:01 PM

Thanks for the add! Looking forward to seeing your journey!! :D



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