Joe and I
My Boys, Drake (6) and Elijah (4)
My new little guy, Alexander born on August 17, 2008
Hello!!! I'm a young (25) mom of three boys, 6, 4, and soon to be 4 months. They are my ultimate inspiration for life in general. Everything I want out of life, I want because I want to better my kids. And in order to do that, I need to take control of my life and health. I suffer from a high anxiety problem that leaves pain in my chest, feeling like a fish out of water when I breathe, and I will get paranoid. After the baby was born, I thought that because I've done so well with managing my weight gain and not go crazy like I did with my first 2, I figured that the weight would be so easy to get off. I first started off with diets. Didn't work. Exercising for some reason hates me and my body hates it back. I wake up knowing exactly what I'm going to do for my workout and when I'll do it, but my problem is, is getting up off my big fat butt and doing it!! This week I've been doing pretty well. I've exercised for all but one day so far and have lost 10 pounds and can already feel the difference. I may not see that big of a difference but Joe says that he can tell and whatever I'm doing is working. But my anxiety doesn't let me believe him. I look in the mirror and all I see is fat. I've tried to tell myself that I'm beautiful and that he loves me no matter what size I am. But my paranoia sets in and then I get terrified that he's going to leave me for a hotter chick. I used to be the "hot chick" and now I feel more like jello in a rubber glove. But the good news to all of my sorrow is that ever since I've started working out, the pain in my chest is gone, and I truely feel calm. I can be all upset in the morning, but after I workout, I feel beautiful and happy. Joe says that I need to work out all day everyday to keep me happy!! It was a joke though. He says he likes it better after I workout because then everything isn't "his fault" anymore. hahaha!!
My goal is to get myself back into shape so that I'm healthier for my family, and so that I feel better about myself. I think that if I feel good about myself, my relationship will be healthier and my family will be happier.
I'm watching my fat and calorie intake and striving to workout everyday for a least a half hour. But lately I've been pushing myself to do at least "just one more program" on FitTV. Then it's another one, and then another till I wear myself out!!
I'm originally born in Tampa, Fl and I now reside in St. Peters, MO with the most patient, trust me on this one, man I have ever met and our 3 boys. I'm not married yet because we didn't want to follow the trend of getting married just because of the baby thing. But it'll be soon enough, and I can't wait!!! Well, I can, but it'll be well worth the wait.
I like to read a lot, do puzzles from the newspaper, be with my family, and secretly hold my own concerts in the comfort of my car, living room or shower with my kids being my #1 fans!!! I'm silly. I love to laugh. I'm a hippy at heart. My mother calls me her flowerchild. :-)
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| current weight: 185.0
Hope You Have a Very Happy Birthday Lori!
2755 days ago
Welcome to the houseaddicts unite group. I hope that you find all of the support and motivation that you need on your journey to a healthier you. Hope to see you on the boards soon.
3027 days ago
Just wanted to stop by to wish you a very warm welcome to Bikini Bodies, we are so glad that you have joined our awesome team.
Come on over and introduce yourself to the team, look forward to reading your posts.
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Aly & Jasmine
3032 days ago
Well honestly, I just push myself. There's plenty of days (including today) when I tell myself, I really, really don't feel like doing this. I just make myself. But some days are better than others and weight comes off relatively fast, so that keeps me motivated also. I fit into my 3's again and that really motivates me. You will do it! Find something you love to do, like tennis, and aim to do it at least three times a week. You can do this.
3053 days ago
Hey girlie! How are you doing? Well, I hope. :)
3066 days ago