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Re-inventing the me

Hello and welcome.

If you're thinking page looks a little blank, you'd be correct. It used to have photos and friends and groups I belonged to. It used to have details about me.

Then in July this year I had a bit of a melt-down. It wasn't just with SparkPeople, it affected a lot of things. I decided I was just sick of it all... I was faking it and failing at it and SP seemed to represent everything I had faked and failed at. I decided I was going to leave the ...
Hello and welcome.

If you're thinking page looks a little blank, you'd be correct. It used to have photos and friends and groups I belonged to. It used to have details about me.

Then in July this year I had a bit of a melt-down. It wasn't just with SparkPeople, it affected a lot of things. I decided I was just sick of it all... I was faking it and failing at it and SP seemed to represent everything I had faked and failed at. I decided I was going to leave the site... I un-joined all my groups, deleted all my stupid blogs, removed all my photos. I started deleting my friends, but when I deleted one I really liked, I suddenly had second thoughts, and couldn't go through with it... so I left the last few surviving friends and put up a message saying I was leaving the site and good luck!

Except... except... except I couldn't actually walk away from it. All the habits I'd started were strangely ingrained... if I didn't track my food I'd have that feeling of having forgotten something... exercise somehow felt less worthwhile if I wasn't recording it... and that confounded points wheel haunted me. And so by degrees I got pulled back in until I was assimilated again.

Funnily enough, since coming back I've actually started to lose weight... which is good... and have gone under the point where I usually stick in my weight-loss efforts then start putting it back on. Yes, funnily enough I have lost it and put it back on many, many times... hasn't 95% of everyone on the site! I added it up; over the years I've lost my entire body weight twice over, so I'm obviously both very good at losing weight and absolutely hopeless at it! However this time it seems to be moving... I'm weighing less than I've weighed in 20 years and I'm feeling good about it.

So here I am, post melt down, re-inventing myself as someone I want to be.
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HIPPICHICK1
6/30/2014 9:16:21 PM

As in, "I took my spade and dug a deep round hole and put rocks around the edge." Voila! New fire pit.
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MRS.DOYLE
6/22/2014 3:51:27 AM

Thanks for your answer to my question about phones. Lots of great positive detail and I promise to mull it over carefully.



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SCHNEBL
12/28/2013 3:49:25 PM

Hey girl - long time! Thought about you when I saw the theatre disaster in London. Lots of things changing here on this side of the pond. Hope all is well with you!



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SATCHMO99
9/1/2013 12:40:04 PM

Just curious, have you stuck with the job with the 3-5 year escape plan?



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MILLIE5522
6/22/2013 4:14:47 AM

Just dropping by to wish you a great weekend even though you will need your wellies :) emoticon



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