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Hi, I'm Johanna. I am 28 and so far fighting a losing battle against my food addiction. I am not only a food lover, a junk food junkie, and an emotional eater, but I am also a boredom eater. If I am not doing anything that I am enjoying and boredom is getting the best of me, I start to have cravings and feel as though I need to and have to eat something. In the end, I either finally cave and eat or I find something that takes my attention away from it all. It'd be nice to say, that I fought the ...
Hi, I'm Johanna. I am 28 and so far fighting a losing battle against my food addiction. I am not only a food lover, a junk food junkie, and an emotional eater, but I am also a boredom eater. If I am not doing anything that I am enjoying and boredom is getting the best of me, I start to have cravings and feel as though I need to and have to eat something. In the end, I either finally cave and eat or I find something that takes my attention away from it all. It'd be nice to say, that I fought the good fight, but sadly and obviously, I usually cave. I usually have a very strong will, but when it comes to the yummy temptation that food has to offer, my very strong will goes out the window.

The only real time that I tried to lose weight was when I had started walking around where one of my sister's use to live when I was staying with her. However, that was a bad dieting experience because even though I had lost a lot of weight within a couple/few months, it was not the kind that I could keep off. Yes, granted I had started to walk every evening which is a healthy thing to do. But, I had accidentally crash dieted when it came to the food part of the diet. Even though I had been told more than once that it was okay to eat whatever I wanted, I still did not feel comfortable in doing so. So, with this uneasiness about eating their food, I usually ended up eating about once a day and usually in the evening or not very much of their food throughout the day. So, when I did eat on the days when it was one meal at night, I would start to feel a little sick and very hot until I had eaten. Again, I was very unhealthy when it came to this one experience of dieting and it was an accident that I made sure not to fix after I had stopped it. However, when I did start it, I had started after I had moved back to where I was originally and started eating the way i had use to. It was no one's fault but my own for not being careful. I soon proven that the whole saying about how if you crash diet, as soon as you stop, you gain twice as much as you lost twice as fast. Boy, is that the truth. It would be nice to say that that was the biggest I have ever been after that, but that's not the case. I had never really, seriously tried to loose weight after that. Now, after several years and more and more stressed has been brought upon me, I can truly say this is the biggest I have ever been and it makes even more depressed about how I look. This isn't good because as I stated earlier I am an emotional eater, so you can pretty much tell where that had led.

Some of my family members had started dieting already and recently, and with some of their help, I have decided to finally stand up to my food addiction and try to once again loose this weight. This time though, I am going to do it the healthy way and make sure that I am doing it the healthy way.

Throughout having this weight, I have had knee pains when it came to kneeling and going up and down stairs, been unable to breathe right when it came to going up the stairs, running, or walking, and among other problems, I have been diagnosed with Acid Reflux. It also certainly does not help that I have such things as depression and anxiety issues. With all this in mind and with the shock of the weight that I now weigh, I have come to the conclusion that I have to stop this and fight back. I really do want to be healthier and not have the problems that I have that are caused by the weight that I have for a girl my height. This was reinforced when I saw that according to this I'm in the obese section of the bmi scale by a lot. It said 30 to - and I had a 39. I was looking with one of my sisters at a page of a little book that basically said that I should be around the 100 to 130 area, some where close. I just want to be what I weighed that one summer when I was eighteen. Technically, it was the healthy weight for my height, but definitely unhealthy with how I lost it. This means that I have to loose about 85-90 lbs. It would also be so great to be able to wear all the clothes that I have always wanted to wear, but could never because it wouldn't look right on me. I want to be able to wear short skirts, spaghetti strapped/sleeveless tops, maybe a belly shirt or two. Heehee. I can't wait. Wish me luck, I'm gonna need it and all the support I can get.




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My goal is to finally let the real me come out that has been hidden for decades within. I want to get back down to a healthy weight for my height. I want to get to where I feel good emotionally, physically, psychologically. I want to feel at ease with myself and not feel like I have to hide anymore. I've always had issues with how I looked and that dictated, along with money, how I looked and dressed. Inside, I'm a pin-up girl just waiting to be let loose. When I'm finally free, watch out world. Things are gonna be a whole lot different.

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Trying to find things that get me moving, but I have no set program at the moment. If you have anything that's working great, please let me know. I could really use the ideas and help.

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I am originally from West Virginia, but I reside at the current moment in Pennsylvania. I am 28 and just got married to the love of my life whom I have been with for nearly seven years. He is my exact opposite physically. He is very tall and extremely thin, whereas I am very short and overweight.

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I am a hopeless romantic, an endless dreamer. I am many other things. Simply put- I am me.

*Side-note: I am an all-around (unpaid) artist who does many different types of art including such things as writing poems/songs, visual art, and singing.

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Life is like a canvas and you're the artist. You choose the media, the style, the colors, what to use, how to use it, and every other detail your picture entails. You're the creator, the artist, you must paint your past, present, future, and inner being. You may not be able to change your past, it will always be a part of you, but you can certainly control and change your present and future. As the saying goes: 'Don't let the past dictate who you are, but let it be part of who you will become.' You're the one who gets to decide and make the choices. Choose your path wisely. Never give up hope. Dreams really can come true, but sometimes they just need help. So help it and maybe your dreams will becom

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