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My name is Lisa, and in desperate need to lose weight. Now im not talking about 40 or 50 lbs, but I need to lose over 200 pads. I have been on/off diets for over 13 years now. I haven't seemed to be able to keep the weight off consistently, my weight keeps going up and down and I am sick of being FAT. To top it off, when I was 16 years old, I found out that I was a diabetic. Now, I have tried every diet there is, and have failed them all. I failed them all.
I've always been big my whole entire life. As long as I can remember, even as a child, I have had a weight problem. Nothing can take away the pain that I was bigger than all my friends and that boys had no interest in me at all. After years of yo-yo dieting, losing 50 lbs. and regaining 70 lbs. though all kinds of diets and commercial programs, my doctor finally talked to me about gastric bypass surgery. He wasn't pushing it, but knowing my failing history with dieting, he thought That I should investigate it and well, I did ...
What I learned was that following the surgery, I would forever be doomed to eating about 2 oz. a meal, or I could get sick and die. It was as simple as that. I had told him I would give him my decision soon. During that time I started another diet, still with no success. I was morbidly obese, and could not exercise. It was a vicious circle. But, I still had not made a decision ..
What I realized was that her program would have me eating the way Iíd have to have eaten after the gastric bypass surgery, and that I could lose weight without the pain of surgery, without the cost of surgery, and without the danger of any surgery. So, I finally made a decision .. Iím gonna go for the surgery .. My journey is not over, and quite frankly, it just began, but my goal is to lose 245 lbs. and weigh 120 - 130lbs. Every since junior high school I have dreamed about being skinny ...
So every year I tell myself this is the year I'm going to change it. That was all small talk because it never happened. I told myself that by my 23rd birthday that I was going to lose this weight. Instead I have been gaining and just lying to myself. So in November of 2006 I will be 30 and I have to get this weight off. I cannot sit here and lie to myself anymore; "I am going to start next week" or telling myself "let me get all of my cravings out this week and then I am going to start." I need to start now. I'm not happy with the way I look or feel and I am very ready to make some changes. I have tried many diets and they have not worked This isn't going to happen this time !!! I do not know why but I am finding it rather hard to stay POP ...
I am very scared that I will not reach my goal. I have always been larger than those in my family. I was "FAT" and they were thin. I felt FAT. When I was in Jr. High school I was in gym class and couldnít pull myself up on the rope. Then in 2003, I fell and hurt my back. I was in so much pain and couldnít move what so ever. I had gone to the doctor and had some x-rays done. The doctor told me that I had a herniated disc in my back. I was in bed for six months and I still couldnít move. The painkillers didnít work for me either. I gained 50 lbs from that. I have been obese my whole life. Currently I am about 245 lbs over weight. The way I see it. I've been trapped in a FAT body too long. I think one of my biggest downfalls was all the food I would eat ...
I have turned down seeing friends who have not seen me in years, because I am so humiliated by what I look like. I have a really bad addiction to food. I donít even eat it necessarily because I am hungry, it's because I'm addicted to the food, I love the way it tastes and makes me feel. I feel like I have to have it. I have always hated myself for letting myself get this FAT and I donít feel comfortable in my own skin. I feel that I am very ugly. I feel like I'm a skinny person trapped in a fat persons body screaming to get out. I also feel that me being this FAT Im not going to live a long life and if I continue to gain weight and donít lose any weight it will affect my health big time. Well I guess this is the start of a very long battle and journey ...
My goals are
1. To lose 75lbs by Nov 9, 2010.
2. Stay on track by being motivated and determined.
3. Let nothing get in my way..
1. I go to bed early cause if i stay up late I'll eat.
2. I won't take any naps during the day
3. Go to the gym more
It's ya girl Lisa.. If anyone would like to contact me, my email address is: email@example.com
1. I love reading Stephen King and James Patterson books.
2. I love scrapbooking.
3. I also love taking pictures.
| current weight: 248.0