3/23/08 - up a little to 157 - not for long
First night of weight watchers - August 1, 2006 - 210.2 pounds
My beautiful son - the reason THIS time needs to be different!
LELLIEGIRL is a SparkPeople Motivator!
cried a river and drowned the whole world - and while she looked so sad in photographs i absolutely love her...when she smiles.
I thought I had it all together when I first joined spark in 2006. I was on a roll and nothing was going to stop me. I went from 210 to 147 in 10 months - size 20w to size 10/12. In rereading my blogs of early on, I thought I had discovered the secret, the balance, the emotional fortitude to deal with life on life's terms and not drown myself in carbs and calories. I was in the best physical shape ever feeling like I could take on the world. I sustained a pretty nasty knee injury 11 months in and that couple with junk, embarked on a major pity party for the next while.
I have always been chunky, leaving the womb at 9 pounds 8 ounces, but it seems when you are younger, it takes fewer pounds to view yourself as obese. My first year in college, I weighed in the 150s and dropped into the 140s briefly. I thought I was huge and because I viewed myself that way, I guess others did, too. I never held my head up as I walked around. My head was always to the ground and I would never speak unless spoken to. Never had a real date in HS and of course in my mind it was the weight. I hated myself and just knew everyone else did, too. Weight was my excuse for a lot of things I did and didn't do - a lot of choices I made and didn't make. I have so many regrets and the weight compounds those feelings in an odd sort of way.
-I have realized how critical exercise is in my journey - it truly gives me less desire to overindulge in food and when antsy, replaces empty binges with true endorphins.
- I am still utilizing Weight Watchers in order to lose my weight but spark helps keep me in check with balance and nutrition - not all calories/points are created equal. I want my body to run and run well and quality fuel is what will help in that area.
-I don't crave sweets like I used to. I rather have a spinach salad loaded up with tomato, banana peppers, onion and feta than a hershey's bar almost anyday. I rather have yogurt than ice cream and am starting to actually PREFER water to diet soda - oh my!!
-This journey continues to be different than any other I have been on before. When really soaring on it, I could say that it was a life time. BUT when things are looking up, it is easy to profess that you know the way it has to be. I hit some bumps as mentioned above and during those times it was difficult to recognize that I was on a detour but not abandoning the trip altogether. Having weathered that major mental/physical obstacle, I can truly say that this IS a lifetime journey. It isn't about wearing a bikini or a size 8 (neither of which I can do yet) - it is about health, about loving my body enough to take care of it, about respecting our Creator enough to want to honor the temple He has given to me.
I have learned that it is not the falling in water that makes you drown, it is the staying there.
06/17/2011 - 201.3
STGs - 189 by August 1
179 by October 1
My initial weightloss goal was 70lbs.
Become toner and more physically fit than ever before.
Run a 5k in Duck, NC on Thanksgiving this year.
Start C25K when I reach 179.9 pounds.
I restarted a hybrid spark/ww point plan 06/17/2011.
I have been cycling close to 9 miles daily 6 days per week.
I have decided to make optimal use of my summer vacation and come back to school in the fall partially transformed and locked into program.
I live in the Tarheel State with my husband, our baby boy, and 2 cats. I need to slowly ditch the sloth I used to be and becoming more interested in pushing my physical limits.
I love my church, my God, my family and anything creative.
The pictures are misleading - I have not looked like the running hottie or the black dress hottie in quite some time. I have few second time around before pictures as I avoid my husband's camera at all costs.
| current weight: 214.0