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October 29, 2012

I've joined the 72-Days Until 2013 Challenge on Team ~Indygirl. It has really got me back on track after a few hard weeks. Still, I'm 60lbs. lighter than my highest weight and over a quarter of the way to my goal. I'm so excited to welcome the New Year healthier in mind and body.

(03/11/08):

I'm so very happy to have found this site. The tracking tools have cut the hours I used to spend journaling to a few minutes after every meal. I can ...
October 29, 2012

I've joined the 72-Days Until 2013 Challenge on Team ~Indygirl. It has really got me back on track after a few hard weeks. Still, I'm 60lbs. lighter than my highest weight and over a quarter of the way to my goal. I'm so excited to welcome the New Year healthier in mind and body.

(03/11/08):

I'm so very happy to have found this site. The tracking tools have cut the hours I used to spend journaling to a few minutes after every meal. I can see how I'm doing anytime of day at a glance and adjust from there. I love the articles on the site and nourish my mind daily as well as my body.

The best thing about SparkPeople is the wonderful community. The people are so friendly and supportive. We're never alone. When friends are less than helpful or supportive, SparkPeople are there. When the people in my life have no concept of what I'm going through. SparkPeople understand.


*Where I Started:

I guess I'll begin with what's weighing on my mind, not to mention around my middle and off my thighs. I've managed to gain back every thing I've lost since I joined TOPS in 2004. At my high point, I topped the scales at 362.

There is no one thing to blame for it. Stress and tension have a lot to do with it as do lack of time and motivation. I've been completely overwhelmed by mothering four kids, working full time as a writer at a desk and dealing with a bizarre, long list of crises due to living in an aging house and in an extended family.

Journaling is the only thing that I've found that actually works for me. Thus, dieting is a full time preoccupation with every waking moment spent worrying about what I can eat, what I am eating, what I have to eat to make a decent meal, what I ended up eating and when I have to eat again� and writing every bit of it down. I already have a full time writing job and I'm a mother of four vivacious children from toddler to tween. I just can't handle one more thing. And yet my weight is completely out of control.

My health is OK for now. However, staying this heavy is not an option. It opens up so many deadly serious problems such as heart disease, diabetes and risk of stroke. I'm always worn out.

It's funny how being heavy is a double edged sword. It also makes me feel awful about myself. I know the reality of social interactions in our society. People judge you before you ever meet on your appearance. I have to work twice as hard to be considered worth while as some pretty little thing. It makes me hang back and stay silent when I should stand forward and speak up for myself. It also insulates me from unwanted attention, which I don't know how to deal with.

I'm completely and utterly overwhelmed by the amount of weight I have to lose. I'm bewildered; knowing that if I succeed, like a balloon that has been overfilled and deflated, I will most likely need surgery to look normal.

I'm seriously considering Bariatric surgery. Anti-obesity drugs aren't an option for me because of my anti-depressants and I feel like I'm out of options. I'm particularly interested in the LAP-band. I know there are substantial risks. The statistics are as high as 10-20%. I know one man who died after having it and another that nearly did. However, I really don't think I can live with myself any more and a separation is out of the question. Where ever I go, there I am.

So here I am again, ready to start over. I know what to do. We all know what do. I just need to figure out a way to get there.
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Member Since: 2/6/2008

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My Goals:
The dreaded chart has me at 145 for my 5' 8", but I have a large frame and was a size 8 at 153 pounds in college. I guess I'm getting ahead of myself since I have 200 lbs. to lose.

I'm going to set my goals at 5 lb. increments..

My Program:
I'm eating six times a day, Trying to make lean protein a priority and get in five fruits and vegetables.

I'm making an effort to drink at least 8 - 8 oz. glasses of water or equivalent a day, and get as much healthy exercise as I can in. Currently I am back to Aquatic therapy.

Personal Information:
I'm actually very shy and introverted. I've been very happily married for 20 years May 8th to my best friend. I love helping people which is probably why I have four kids. Music is my passion, reading is my joy, and writing is my therapy. I have great admiration for people who can do it well, especially for those that can serialize a character.

I'm overweight and have been for most of my life. I peaked a couple years back at 362 pounds after our last child was born. I am now a member of TOPS which stands for Take Off Pounds Sensibly.

Other Information:
I'm into computers, video games, pen and paper role playing games, action adventure games, RPGs, camping, fishing, baking, Homebrewing, Mead Making, Reading, Movies, Writing, Knitting, and Take Off Pounds Sensibly or TOPS.

I love music. I listen to a wide variety of genres, play violin and I'm learning to play the guitar.

I've written a sci-fi, character focused novel, and am looking at options as far as publishing. To publish, to self publish... everyone in the industry seems to have definite opinions one way or another. I have decided to try and publish for the experience, and I've taken the first step and submitted my work to an agent.

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EMMABE1
10/3/2012 7:10:48 PM

Just dropped by to say - Hi. and welcome you to The “Chair Exercise” Team
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Welcome to the most friendly, most supportive team in SparkPeople land!! - Please feel free to jump in and join in the message boards. It has been proved that people who contribute to message boards and blog regularly lose more weight, more easily than those who don’t, so come on in.
It is a great place to be and you will find lots of friends, ideas and links to help and support you at all stages on your journey.
I hope you succeed in all the goals you set.
Enjoy the journey
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EMMABE1
10/3/2012 7:10:48 PM

Just dropped by to say - Hi. and welcome you to The “Chair Exercise” Team
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Welcome to the most friendly, most supportive team in SparkPeople land!! - Please feel free to jump in and join in the message boards. It has been proved that people who contribute to message boards and blog regularly lose more weight, more easily than those who don’t, so come on in.
It is a great place to be and you will find lots of friends, ideas and links to help and support you at all stages on your journey.
I hope you succeed in all the goals you set.
Enjoy the journey
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GOOGIE1262
9/26/2012 11:30:35 PM

Back online tonight and saw your response to my blog. Thank you so much for you support! Had an easy fast and was not too off..Now I just have to get right back on track! Will be checking in tomorrow...Be well and we will keep on pushing:)



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APACHESTEVE
9/19/2012 9:54:07 PM

Thank you for visiting my page and your kind wishes. Your profile picture is quite pretty!



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GLORYTOGLORY
5/14/2012 5:04:50 PM

thanx congrats to you as well1



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