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April 2011

Me @ 396lbs... urgh!

Little Miss Sunshine - My angel Katie and my inspiration.





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I have BED (Binge Eating Disorder) and became ill with CHD(Congestive Heart Disease) in October/November 2003. Until then I was a full-time carer for my only child Katie who died in 2004, aged 14, from CHF (congestive heart failure) caused by secondary pulmonary hypertention and a congenital heart defect.

My recovery was very slow and frustrating and I now have osteoarthritis in my left hip and knee which restricts my mobility, caused by a serious road accident in 1984 and years of being obese due to the BED.

My goal was to find a job working in IT, so I studied for and passed my CompTIA A+ exams in 2006. I then worked as an IT Volunteer at our local Hospice for just over a year and found a job as an ICT Technician in a local School... before my job was cut after 2 years due to Government austerity measures. I'm now studying for my AAT and working for the NHS on a temporary contract.

I had a gastric bypass in January 2009 after losing 86lbs to reach my pre-surgery target weight (BMI 50 or less). Due to health problems and depression I put 21 lbs back on but lost it again in the short run up to my surgery. During the operation my surgeon discovered that I had a very large hiatus hernia which was restricting my heart and lungs and was likely responsible for causing my otherwise unexplained CHD.

My weight plateaued after a fall injured my other knee and caused my arthritis to flare up which prevented me from exercising, I became depressed and regained 55lbs due to overeating. I also tripped and fractured my elbow back in July 14 and now have post traumatic arthritis in that too. And then a couple of months later I got shingles... I'm beginning to think someone up there is seriously testing me!

Anyway life is busier now since I started working for the NHS but generally I'm much happier than I was. A friend of mine once described me as "driven"... he was probably right but I'm trying to be a little more laid back these days and not worry so much about things that haven't happened yet.

I love to sing and find it lifts me up in my darkest hours. I'm in the Worship Team at church and also on the Reading rota.

My goals for this year are to pass my Level 3 AAT and get my BMI below 40 so I can have a Total Hip Replacement. Beyond that any plans I have are on hold until after my recovery. Hopefully I will be more mobile and finally be able to get nearer to my goal weight.


Updated 01/11/15

Member Since: 6/15/2007

Fitness Minutes: 7,370

My Goals:
My long-term goals are to be fit enough to work full-time and to pass my AAT qualifications.

My Program:
I originally lost 188lbs between 2006 and 2010. Sadly due to further health problems and depression I put 55lbs back on. Now I need to get my BMI below 40 so I can have a Total Hip Replacement ASAP.

I struggle with exercise because of my disabilty but I keep trying to build a regular routine.

Personal Information:
I live in the UK.

I trained in Martial Arts in my twenties and was a member of a Dark Age re-enactment society, riding my motorcycle to events. After a serious road accident I had to give up and gradually developed osteoarthritis
in my left hip.

My daughter died in 2004 and my sister the previous year, following a road accident. My father also died from a heart attack in 1991. My mother died shortly before Christmas 2013.

Other Information:
I gained my BSc in 2000. I've had various jobs and am currently working for the NHS and studying for my AAT qualification.

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    My name is brenda. I also have bed..and arthritis in knees. I found your story inspiring and added you as a friend. I am working on the bed with therapist. I lost my mom 6 years ago this march and i still grieve but i also have come to tell myself she would want me to benge because of her. One day at a time one step at a time one mouthful at a time. Thank you for sharing.

    1244 days ago
    Thank you for your open sharing on your spark page. I want to be in your cheering corner. We have some things in common. I too am a worship leader on our praise team. I have been a full time wife and mother for 29 years and soon my youngest child will graduate High School . Then my job will be finished and I will be seeking what work the Lord would have for me next. I've spent all my adult life except a brief time just prior to major surgery obese. I've been an emotional eater. Looking to God to help me feel those feelings and work through them rather than eat them down. God's Grace and blessings to you. emoticon Hope
    1262 days ago
    Two years ago you came to my page and gave me a hug. I'm back to give you one. I know your loss and the struggle it is. I ended up losing my little girl last year. I hope your doing well. I'm back here again to do this once and for all. I hope.
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    1375 days ago
  • v LAWLI56
    SHYLONESTAR: I'm just busy and don't get the opportunity to blog very often but I'm still around. My weight will probably always be an ongoing issue but I won't let it rule my life.
    1468 days ago
    Your blog was from back a few months. I can't help but wonder how you are doing now? Are you still with SparkPeople? Your blog moved me to tears...I just want to give you a hug and encourage you to keep at it, one day at a time.
    1472 days ago
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