This was the ah ha day Easter 2009 I thought I looked good this day...YIKES
I really want to do this...it's time!!!! I didn't write my story until now, because I do not know how much it really matters, the reason why I'm overweight. I'm learning that it is important on this site, to share. I've had to work hard not to dwell on the why, but how am I going to get out of this mess :) Here it is , a condensed version. I've struggled with my weight my whole life...my momis always size 6, and had me at weight watchers at 13 yrs old, 135 lbs. I've done a variety of diets. When I was 22-23 yrs old I lost 45 lbs, 190-145. Back to 188, at 26 yrs.Since then, I have worked hard to keep it off, went to gyms, classes, walked, biked ect. 10 years ago I met my now ex-husband, he loved full fat food, not supportive of dieting, I was glad he seemed so accepting of who I am. I became pregnant with identical twins at 200 lbs, 250lbs b4 birth. I've been above 210 since they were born. I had given up smoking when I was pregnant (thankfully) but started again, a few years ago. I quit for good, 20 months ago. PRAISE GOD. In the last five years I've lost two career jobs, my Dad to cancer, and my husband to divorce, and my beloved 17 year old cat. I am grateful for my blessings, I have healthy, spirited twin daughters,& two lovely cats. I belong to a great church, and my mom and brother live nearby. I maintain a good relationship with my "in-law" family. I'm searching for another career job, since I am the sole supporter of my family. my girls are going to be 7yrs. old, and it's time I find myself and live the way God has intended, at 42 yrs old. I have alot of life yet to live, and I want to enjoy it . I believe that to do this, I need to be at a healthy weight. my energy levels have been so low, I used to blame it on working full time, and being a single parent & homeowner over 40. Now I am not working, and still I don't have the energy I should. The scale is moving very slowly for me, why am I surprised? Nothing comes easy for me...with that being said...I am hoping, upon reaching my goal, life will become at least easier to handle, without this extra 70+ lbs to carry everywhere :)
To live my life as God has intended.
| current weight: 226.0