Hi there everyone, I am back this is my 3rd time on Spark. They say 3 times a charm!. But I have decided that I really need to make some LIFETIME Changes. I really feel that my will power to want the change and feel good is a whole lot stronger than not wanting to go through the changes that will make me feel like a new person.
I am coming 47 years old no I am not excessively overweight but when you buy a bunch of nice new Jeans that don't fit after only 6 mo and the jeans you are able to ...

Hi there everyone, I am back this is my 3rd time on Spark. They say 3 times a charm!. But I have decided that I really need to make some LIFETIME Changes. I really feel that my will power to want the change and feel good is a whole lot stronger than not wanting to go through the changes that will make me feel like a new person.
I am coming 47 years old no I am not excessively overweight but when you buy a bunch of nice new Jeans that don't fit after only 6 mo and the jeans you are able to wear are getting tight to me that's a strong signal to get back on track and do something about it now.
The other thing that was plaguing me was my smoking I have smoked for a total of 35 years within that time I quit once for 6 weeks, I quite once for 3 days, I quite once for 7 months, I quit again for 3 days.A lot of quitting times over the course of those years an each time I went back smoking I smoked more then I did before I quit. So for the last year I have been increasingly getting shorter of breath I have to go up 4 flights of stairs at work that became a very big struggle my chest was just screaming in pain after getting to the top of those stairs then I started to notice the pains ever so often in my chest when I was having that smoke or shortly there after and I said this is it.I want more out of my life then an early grave and not being able to be there at the weddings of Grandchildren. I have so many places I want to travel to still and I am only coming on 47 what the hell am I doing to myself pending 200.00 a month just to get myself to an early grave. So I went to my doctor and said I am so ready this time please help me. I started Champix( Canadian Version) On Jan 11th Jan 18th was my First full day of being a non-smoker and I am SO GRATEFUL and SO PROUD of myself that I did it. Don't get me wrong I know I have only begun and I know that I have a long road ahead of yet. But this time I made my announcement I didn't keep it quite in case I failed. I live with my 26 year old son who is a non-smoker and gives tons of support, plus I have a wonderful circle of of close friends that are supporting me too and guess what out of my circle of friends I was the only smoker. I started feeling guilty when we would go out somewhere and I would have to go outside for a smoke all the time. So that's where I am at today. I know there is tons more support here at spark and I am looking forward to being a Healthier Happier me.