me at 220.3 lbs - September 2005
me at 160.8 lbs - June 2008
I'm 26 and I live in Southern Ontario.
I've always thought I was 'fat' from what I remember, since grade 4 - little did I know I was a pretty average kid, I was just never skinny. I think the first time I wanted to lose weight was in grade 8, when I was getting ready to go to a school dance and my mother told me that I was a little too 'chubby' to be wearing spagetti straps... As much as I wanted to drop the lbs I never managed to make it. I shaped up a bit in grade 10 when I started training with my school to hike up mount Washington, but as soon as the hike was over, it was back to my old ways.
Once I finished high school things took a turn for the worse, my dad was in an accident and left in a coma for 3 weeks, his rehab lasted about a year, then after 2 years of trying to make it work, my parents divorced (they were married 28 years). By this point I was finishing college and still unsure of what I wanted to do with my life. I was consistently getting bigger - going from a size 8/10 in 2000 to a 16 by 2004. I was in denial, not realizing how big I actually was until I went to university in September of 2004. I was living with my best friend and we decided to make a change and lose weight together. I sucessfully droped 25lbs - from 113 to 188 in 4 months (jan-apr 2005) - I was so happy... however with me moving back home (school year was done and I was changing universities) I fell back into my old habbits and gained it all and then some back. By Septmeber 2005 I had reached 220 lbs. I was unhappy, tired and frusterated. When I saw the picture (to the left - me with fiance) I was mortified - I didn't recognize who that person was. So, between January 2006 and June 2008 I lost 60lbs, It was an on again/off again relationship - lose 20 lbs, gain 4, lose 15, gain 5... you know how it goes.....but I got down to 160.8 in June 2008 and could taste my goals they were so close... Since 2005 when I first started to drop weight my goal was to be 150lbs - I was only 10 away from success.
But Since June, I've put 24lbs back on.... it sucks. I was so close to reaching my goal, and then I started to eat.... a lot! I don't even know why - I'm sure I could make up excuses, but really, what good would that do me - I knew I was eating bad and gaining weight - I had the "I'll start my diet monday" mentality, but 'that monday' never seem to come.
I thought I was going to be able to reach my goal by my wedding... boy did I disapoint myself on that front. I got down to 170 but then about 3 weeks before the wedding put a few back on (I eat when I get stressed) and was in the mid 170s by my wedding. Needlesss to say, I'm now back from my honeymoon I'm at the heaviest I have been in a few years now and it's a horrible feeling.
Today I am finished with being unhappy.
If you've managed to finish my novel I thank you for reading my story - I can't wait to reach my goal so I can inspire people like so many on SP have inspired me.
"No one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." - Author Unknown
I am done being the fat fiancée
I am done eating poorly
I am done being lazy
I am done making excuses
I am done not trying
I am done trying to justify
I am done eating meat
I am done feeling sorry for myself
I am done being someone I'm not
I am done done done!!!
184.4 - Starting Weight
170 - new shirt
160 - new trousers (cause I'll need them!!!)
150 - romantic dinner out with fiance (wearing new dress!)
145 - manicure/pedicure
140 - GOAL!!!! (or somewhere around there!) - buying myself custom jeans ;) and hopefully getting ready to put on my wedding dress!!!!
To love myself.
I want to lose enough weight so I feel good about my body. I'm not sure what that number is, but I'm guessing it's around 150 lbs, we'll see when I get there!!!
I'm counting calories and excersizing (at least 4x/week). between 14-1500 cal/day, and LOTS of water ;)
I was born in Scotland and moved to Canada when I was just a baby. Love living in Canada, the many different seasons give me so many options for different activities!
Everyone on this site is so motivating - I want to thank you all for helping me get motivated!!!
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| current weight: 183.2
Hey girl! Where you at!? Come back and join us! Miss ya!
2274 days ago
Where you at lady?
2422 days ago
Just wanted to check on you. I hope all is well and you are still KICKING IT!
2508 days ago
Thanks! I am so excited now, after spending a couple hours on spark i got my motivation back and im actually looking forward to doing this! ha never thought i would say that!
Hope you are doing great!
2539 days ago
Thanks for the comment on my blog! I just wish i would of came back sooner than i did. We both can do this!
2541 days ago