september 2007 -- roughly 180 pounds.
2.22.10 - week 4, day 1.
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after years and years and years of battling an eating disorder and yo-yo dieting, i've finally realized that i really do need to just grab the bull by the horns and admit i have an issue as opposed to thinking i can combat it by explaining away my screwy eating habits and often obsessive exercise habits.
in august of 2007, i weighed 200 pounds. it was right after high school, i was moving to college 3000 miles away, my family was all overweight, and my two jobs in high school had been first at cold stone and then at starbucks. i'd had a rocky relationship with my weight all through high school -- had gotten down to a really dangerous 105 pounds at 5'5" when i was fifteen years old, but then had treatment for anorexia. however, that coalesced into binge eating disorder, and as my self esteem had never been all that strong, when i started being ostracized in school for being so mentally messed up (girls can be catty!) i ate my feelings. and then i got to college and told myself i would change.
i used to be almost totally sedentary, but then i started going to the gym. i told myself i should go every day, and i really tried to stick to it. the first summer home from school, i started going to a really nice gym, one that had branches in both los angeles and new york so no matter if i was at home or at school, i could work out. i started running, started working with a trainer, and lost even more weight. then i came home from school in the summer of 2009 and yo-yo'ed about ten or fifteen pounds. not a lot, but enough to make me realize that i still had other issues to deal with.
so this is me working on those issues. this is me doing it right, and finally doing it for good.
to be comfortable at a goal weight of 130lbs, as well as to get my emotional and binge eating under control.
CARDIO - 5/6 days a week, an hour at a time.
STRENGTH - 2 to 3 days a week is what i know i should do, but usually i really cannot bother myself to do that. i need to work on that.
FOOD - eating as clean as possible. less processed foods, less eating on the run. i'm a vegetarian, and have been for years, but i always eat nuts and other high-calorie food mindlessly. i also need to stop the horrible practice of binging because it only undoes the good i did all week, and i always feel like crap afterwards.
my name is ella. i'm 20 years old, and i currently go to school in nyc but i was born and raised in los angeles. i love all things fashion, all things usc football, and all things pop culture and movie related.
| Pounds lost: 13.0
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2031 days ago
girl, relating to your blog, once you figure out why we binge, can you please tell me?! =[ i just had a food binge tonight and i dont understand why. we know we feel horrible after and we know better, but yet we still do it. obviously you have done something right if you have gotten down to 147. i am still hanging out at 200!!! i just dont understand why i am so addicted to food =[
2274 days ago
hey. well i am getting better at something every day. i may not have lost the weight in february, but im ready to tackle march! right now im just working on the extra little snacks that add up. and today when i weighed myself and saw i maintained and didnt lose, instead of beating myself up, i thought, ok, so what can i do to change this for next week? it felt really powerful and good to be kind to myself and try and help myself. glad you had a good work out at the gym and enjoy being sore ;]
2277 days ago
hey girl! how is your week going? hope its going good and you see good results this week!
2277 days ago
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2289 days ago