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Never Turning Back Again

I was sitting here today, pondering on what I have done with my life. Aside from marrying my best friend Mark, I really haven't done much. I couldn't. I was a chubby child, a fat teenager, and now an obese adult. I would be considered morbidly obese. It hurts to move, I'm tired all the time, and I do get embarrassed when out in public. I don't feel beautiful, even though my husband tries his best to show me that I am to him.

At my heaviest, I was about 320 lbs. I started ...
I was sitting here today, pondering on what I have done with my life. Aside from marrying my best friend Mark, I really haven't done much. I couldn't. I was a chubby child, a fat teenager, and now an obese adult. I would be considered morbidly obese. It hurts to move, I'm tired all the time, and I do get embarrassed when out in public. I don't feel beautiful, even though my husband tries his best to show me that I am to him.

At my heaviest, I was about 320 lbs. I started working as a cashier, and the weight started to shed. I got down to 265, and I was thrilled! I met my future husband at work, and we married 8 months later. Then we got the news, I was pregnant! I was never so excited before in my life. I was nervous, and scared, but the happiness outweighed all that. But it was short lived. I lost the baby, only a week after finding out I was pregnant. We were devastated. And I'm pretty sure my weight had something to do with me losing our baby. I was diagnosed with PCOS as a teenager and was told my chances of having a baby one days was slim to none. I am so mad at myself for allowing my body to get so badly out of shape. My weight cost the life of my baby, and if I keep it up, it will cost me my own life too.




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METIS457_79
1/10/2013 11:31:20 AM

Chin up my friend! WE can do this together! You are one of the prettiest women I know. Don't let the negative thoughts overwhelm you!



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SAMMYLUVS3DD
1/5/2013 5:00:36 PM

I read your opening section where you said that you don't feel beautiful. I can totally relate. This may sound silly, but part of my goals for this year is to love myself no matter what shape I am in. So every morning, and before I go to bed, I look myself in the eyes in the mirror and tell myself that I am beautiful and worthy of love. You are too!



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SANDYCANDOIT2
1/4/2013 12:06:13 PM

Hi Lady. My name is Sandy and I am new to this site as well, I can relate to everything you've said. It's so hard but I have made it a goal that this year will be my year to lose this weight once and for all. I would love to get to know you and hopefully we can be support for eachother on this journey. :)



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