At the Beach the day before joining SP 277 lbs
My son Tommy and I at the 2010 Race for the Cure. :) My first 5K
I have come to the conclusion that we are no good for each other, i have always used you as a shelter from the hurts and pains I have endured in my life, but its time i put on my big girl panties and take ownership. Ownership for who I have become despite you and for who I am currently and know that its enough. The whirlwind of events that life has thrown at me is great but is my burden to carry, I only thought I needed you, when in reality it is you that has needed me.
Your need for warm shelter from elements of the world has been my job since i met you in my adolescence, I have feed and clothed you seemingly for my entire life. You have created in me self depreciation where the concept of someone calling me beautiful is foreign, I want to believe that the phrase "you are so beautiful" is true and honest, not just an tool or lie to get me to comply. You have also used me to fulfill your agenda of your desire for clothing sizes followed by the letter X which is not fun to satisfy or easy for that matter nor is it inexpensive.
I have let you use my sense of humor to mask my feelings towards you for a long time. You have used that same personality trait to help trick people in my life making them think Im a happy person. The gig is up, because of you I am very good at being alone which is not something I want to brag about. My need to control other things in my life is a challenging hardship. I want to be proud of the accomplishments I have made, and a good Forrest Gump impression is not what i consider a good accomplishment.
I am going to remove you ounce by ounce ~ gram by gram if i have to. Yes i said remove, not lose, for lost things are always found. The blood sweat and tears that are about to overwhelm me will be tough, but knowing you are no longer going to be my major relationship is a refreshing thought. I am willing to face these obsticles to rid myself of your grasp.
Signed your former landlord
To be rid of the fat girl that always hops infront of me, when a photo is taken, she's cute, but damn girl....
I have decided to walk 5 to 7 days a week, I have a loop of nearly 3 miles that I try to walk every morning. I am also currently on Take Shape For Life program for my food intake.
I am a single momma with an almost 13 year old boy. He is the light of my life and I would walk to the end of the earth for him if I had to. Just wish i could say that bout myself, I am here to change that attitude towards me and have her be worth that very same path.
Life is not measured on how many breaths you take, but by how many moments take your breath away.
If you keep doin what you've always done, you are gonna keep gettin what you've always got
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| Pounds lost: 36.2