Update February, 2014
WOW! When I first started Sparkpeople in 2012 I thought I'd never be saying the words "Starting Over"!!! I looked at that as such a negative thing, but I'm trying to forgive myself for losing my way and trying to look at the words "starting over" in a different light.
Starting Over is a whole lot better than Giving Up!
Update June, 2013
Almost a whole year has passed since joining Sparkpeople and it has been a tumultuous one! Like a bad rollercoaster, I have had my ups and downs...unfortunately, I am right back to the point I started. Feeling bad all the time, no exercising whatsoever, out of control eating and blood sugars! Very disappointed in myself to say the least, but like the sunflower in my sparkpage background, I am determined to turn my face toward the SUN and push on! Yes, I am sure that there will be rain showers along the way, but I will persevere!!!
Update February, 2013
Sometimes you just have to know when to walk away. After careful thought, I decided to "quit" the current BLC round. Lots of thoughts and feelings rolling around in my head about that experience. Suffice it to say, it just wasn't working for me. It was a group of very determined women...it's not that I'm not determined too, I just choose to go about this journey in a much slower, more self-forgiving pace.
That being said, I begin today...trying "to get my spark back".
Update January, 2013...
WOW! What a journey so far!!! I was rolling along nicely and had lost about 30 pounds...clothes were getting very loose and I even had to buy some new smaller sizes! Life was a beach!
Then, a Nor'easter blew ashore at the end of summer and it's been kind of messy ever since! August 31st was the one year anniversary of my Dad's passing and my Mom's subsequent unexpected illness which led to her passing near the end November...losing both my parents within 14 weeks of each other definitely rocked my world. At the one year mark, I found I was just as, if not MORE emotional than I was a year ago.
Being a lifelong EMOTIONAL eater, I turned to food. That combined with the Holidays led to putting back on some of the weight I had lost. I feel as if I have to begin again...I can't look back, only forward. Just like with any storm, the skies will clear and it will be sunny again!
I am about to begin my second round of BLC (Biggest Loser Challenge Round 21), and I am happy to be a member of Steely Sapphire Soldiers! Let's see where this installment of my journey takes me!
Update August, 2012...
After 40 years, I've decided that I'm DONE!!!
DONE feeling bad all the time...
DONE looking for the largest size in everything...
DONE letting fat and lack of fitness run my life...
DONE fearing what the future will hold for me if I don't get things under control!!!
Since joining Sparkpeople about six weeks ago, my life has changed so much! This might seem silly to some since I've lost only 10 pounds so far...this just proves that I'm DONE letting the scale determine how I feel!!!
In this short time, I've learned that this journey begins with a mental shift! Over time, the scale will show what I already know...I'm DONE being the fat girl!!!
1. Feel better...reduce and/or eliminate blood pressure and diabetes medication.
2. Enjoy life more fully by becoming physically fit.
3. Make it to ONEderland by my 50th birthday! (Mar 3rd)
4. Encourage others with my successes.
1. Staying within my daily nutrition guidelines.
2. Following the weekly exercise goals for the 8 week diabetes challenge.
3. Participating in SparkTeams, Blogs, etc. every day.
3. Trying new kinds of foods that are better for me without developing the mindset that I have to give up everything...moderation is the key!
4. Remembering that I'm not going to be "perfect" everyday! By doing the best I can everyday, and remembering to forgive myself when I fall short...believing that holding on to the past will keep me from living a full future.
I love reading, Wii activities, scrapbooking, photography & watching all kinds of movies.
My Medium Range goals (every 25 pounds):
220 lb ~ FUN day trip to Disney & new Disney t-shirt
195 lb - DISNEY weekend getaway!
170 lb - Mini vacation to destination of choice
145 lb - NEW WARDROBE & CRUISE!!!
Secrets of Success
This user doesn't have any secrets of success.
| current weight: 228.2
Hope you are having a wonderful week!
149 days ago
Happy Belated Birthday, DONE GIRL
In Pisces, the Sun is sensitive and idealistic. You are "tuned in" to your environment, and aware of everything happening in your world, and to everyone around you. Pisces is the dream sign of the zodiac. You may be one of the true dreamers of the world, often getting caught up in impractical plans and ideas. You absorb the ideas and the mental outlook of those around you, for better or for worse. The decisions that you make may be workable, if sometimes emotional and erratic. Often these decisions are made on hunches and feelings with little or no foundation in fact. Creative, spiritual and often a bit mystical, you can be impractical and illogical.
You're a moody and introspective person, and it's hard for others to understand you. It may be hard for you to understand yourself sometimes. Your temperament varies from being optimistic to being acutely pessimistic.
Although you may be very shy and unassuming, you care deeply about your stature and succeeding in your endeavors. You may feel vulnerable and anxious when you are unsure of your status and circumstances. You have a deeply hidden inner pride and when this is attacked in any way, you react emotionally.
Compassionate, tolerant, kind, and loving, you are easily influenced by others because you don't want to hurt anyone. Always charming and likable, you are good to those in distress. You are as fond of animals as you are people. You are sympathetic to the world's unfortunate, including every stray animal and helpless soul you meet. You are more concerned with others' well-being than your own, and you want to save people from themselves. You are easily taken in by a hard-luck story and often leave yourself open to be used. You are always there with a shoulder to cry on for your friends in need. Frequently people take advantage of this compassionate nature.
If you are a typical Pisces, you're likely to suffer from an inferiority complex. You probably lack an adequate sense of self-confidence, as you are so very sensitive, shy and introspective. You never feel that you do enough, so you often overwork, putting stress on your physical body. In your quiet way, you accomplish much. Having a natural tendency to become a workaholic, you must have a generous amount of escape time, preferably with total solitude.
The nature of Pisces is very adaptable and pliable. You may have to fight for a sense of stability and to resist the impulses of the moment.
169 days ago
Happy birthday, Done Girl!
175 days ago
Happy Birthday! Hope you enjoyed your special day.
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