I am so sorry of the emotional abuse you have & are induring; they say sticks & stone may break my bone but name will never hurt me but really names do hurt. It plays strongly on self worth, you have made a great 1st step to help yourself become healthy.
Baby steps. You've taken a big step by doing something for yourself and your wellness by just getting on SparkPeople. Think of one very small thing that you could do to every day to take a step toward your wellness. It can be anything. Make it something fairly easy. You'll be able to build on that. Hope this helps.