Hi there! Nice meeting you here on Spark. From the sound of your blog you have been on an emotional roller coaster. My sympathies. Don't beat yourself up about your coping mechanisms. It sounds like a very natural way to grieve. But as we know, at some point life must go forward and it sounds like you have a plan. A really great plan! I just came off a twelve week challenge that put me in a really good place. Best wishes and keep us posted. Keep Sparking!