Pepper, Bandit and Baby Girl all climbing on Daddy!
Happy Anniversary to me...May 7, 2008....88 lbs gone!
This is me in May 2006, one year before I started losing weight. I am wearing Tony's clothes!
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One thing I have always known is being over weight. It has been in every early childhood memory I have ever known. I remember being teased as a child, I remember never being able to find clothes that fit me, and I remember always wondering why I was the only one out of the three of us to be over weight (I have an older brother and sister). My dad was a big man, but looking back at pictures of him, he wasn't big when he was younger. My mom was always very thin. She almost always looked too thin. So I always wondered where I fit in the grand scheme of things.
I always ate seconds at dinner. My brother and I would fight over them, and I felt like I was always hungry. I soon feel into that emotional eating trap, which was easy because I always felt so bad about how I looked, and about how the other kids treated me at school. We moved alot growing up, so I was always the new fat kid. It is hard to make friends that way. We lived in Georgia for almost 5 years, and when we moved my 6th grade year, I had made a total of one friend. She is still one of my best friends today. She loved me when it seemed no one else did. I was such a sad kid.
We moved to Texas when I was 12, and settled in a small East Texas town. We stayed there for 4 years and I finally made friends. I still had kids be mean to me, I was still overweight, and I still hated who I was, but I had friends, and that made all the difference. During those years, my mom went to work for my dad, and having three teenagers in the house, she kept food in the pantry that was easy to fix and microwavable. Without her there to moniter my snacks, I ate what I wanted. By the time I was a sophomore in high school I weighed about 180 lbs. I hated how I looked, and if I did by chance get a boyfriend, he didn't last long. I always thought that was because he couldn't stand the sight of me.
In my Junior year, my dad's job moved us to south Texas. By now, I was the only one still at home. I was going to a new school by myself, and I was so scared. Scared =eating. My mom wanted to help me, so the summer between my Junior and Senior year, she helped me go on a diet. I lost like 50 lbs that summer despite working in a Pizza Resturant. I began making friends my Senior year, and having boyfriends, and I was doing better, but once I fell into that comfort zone, I gained all of the weight back, and by the time I went to college I was 200 lbs.
So skipping ahead through one year of college, an elopement, a divorce, a remarriage, and two kids, you find me a year ago at 252. By this time I have again gone on a diet. I lost another 50 lbs and stalled at 200 lbs, and then gained all of it back and then some. By the time I get to this point, I am stressed, feeling old, hurting all the time in my joints, and totally unhappy with me. Unhappy = eating. My doctor sent me for tests, and found out that I had sleep apnea. Wow, was I upset. I don't want to sleep with a machine! I don't like closed in spaces. I was totally freaked out, but I did it anyway, and it was crazy, but like 30 lbs flew off of me right away.
You know, I used to always say that my weight was inherited, and I was right, but not in the way I thought. Evidently, my dad probably had sleep apnea too, and suprise, but so does my brother. My sleep doctor said that I have probably always had it, and it slowed my metabolism so much that I gained weight easily and had a hard time losing it.
Well, I gained that 30 lbs back, and that's where I found myself in May of last year: at 252 and needing to lose weight or I was going to die young like my dad did 7 years before. I decided that enough was enough and I wasn't going to let this weight define who I was anymore. It was an empowering revelation.
Over the past 9 months, I have learned a few things that has helped me along in my success...
1. Journal your food...keep a notebook and put down everything you eat in a day. Be honest. I just started my 4th notebook. They are a great resource to have, and they make you face up to what you are putting in your mouth.
2. Use SP to your full advantage. This website has so many great things, and it's all free. Why not use them? Take the time to log in your food and exercise. Find a group or two and make friends online. Use your page as a resource for yourself, and log in weights and measurements once a week. You can't buy the kind of support you get from SP.
3. Blog. Blogging will help you with emotional issues. It becomes an outlet for your feelings and has actually kept me from eating up how I feel. I think blogging is wonderful and wish I had found it sooner.
I am going to lose this final 30 lbs. I am going to succeed where I have always failed before, and I am going to live to see my grandchildren. I am not going to die young, and my dad is going to look down on me and be so proud.
I am going to be the best Kim I can be....
Start mth3: July8, 2007 -28lbs and 18"
Tony: -22lbs and 8"
Start mth4: Aug 11, 2008 -38.5lbs and 20"
Tony: -24lbs and -7.75"
Start mth5: Sept 8, 2007 -45lbs and -23"
Tony: -27lbs and -12"
Start mth6: Oct 6, 2007 -52lbs and -26"
Tony: -34.8 lbs and -15"
Start mth7: Nov 10, 2007 -62.12 lbs and -29.25"
Tony: -35lbs and -15"
Start mth8: Dec 1, 2007 -65lbs and -32.5"
Tony: -41.14 lbs and -19.25"
Start mth 9: Jan 5, 2008 -69.14 and -34"
Tony: -33 and -14.5"
Start mth 10: Feb 2, 2008: -74.8 and -36.5"
Tony: -39.12 and -18.5"
Start mth 11: Mar 1, 2008: -82.10 lbs and -41.5"
Tony: -30.14 lbs and -15.75"
Start mth 12: April 5, 2008: -86 lbs and -43.75"
Tony: -26.12 lbs and -17"
1 yr mark: May 3, 2008: -88.12 lbs and -46.75"
Tony: -20 lbs and -17.25"
Start mth 14:June 7, 2008: -91.12 lbs and -48"
Tony: -9.14 lbs and -8.75"
Start mth 15: July 5, 2008: -96 lbs and -52.25"
Tony: -16.8 lbs and -15"
I would love to get below 200 lbs (reached this goal Oct. 13, 2007), to fit into anything on a regular sales rack (reached this goal Nov. 13, 2007), to be a normal weight for the first time in my life (I feel like I have already achieved this-most women are my size not a size 0), to live long enough to see my grandchildren grow up one day, to not die early and leave my family devestated like my dad did, and ultimately to lose 92 lbs and keep it off!
*I will aim to eat 1200-1550 calories per day.
*I will aim to drink 8-10 (sometimes more) cups of water per day.
*I will try to journal my food daily and log it into the nutrition tracker.
I will try to make time to go for a walk with Bandit every day for a 30 min walk.
I will try to become more active in my Limes group.
*I will try to blog regularly and go on spark daily to keep me inspired.
We are from East Texas. We have lived here for the past 4.5 yrs. We really enjoy living out in the country with the cows.
I am a childcare teacher. I teach 3 yr olds at a childcare center where we live. It is so rewarding to watch these kids learn. I have been teaching for 13 yrs and I never get tired of it. My TEEMS training is finally done. I took my final for my CDA on June 21st, and I passed it! I love to read, and my favorite author is Jenette Oke, but my favorite book series is the Left Behind books.
We have 4 indoor cats. They are like an extention to our family. Kind of like having 4 more kids in the house. We rescued all 4 from shelters as adult cats and our lives are so much richer for having them with us.
We also have a 10.5 mth old cockapoo puppy named Pepper who has special needs. He is extremely spoiled rotten.
We adopted a lab/pit mix that we rescued on the road we live on. He is 11 mths old, and getting bigger by the minute. Bandit is my walking buddy.
| current weight: 186.4