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"I often give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it"-alice in wonderland

That is how it's been since I let myself go during my first marriage and even moreso during the divorce. I'd tell myself "I really need to get healthy! I need to eat better! I need to get active". But it never happened. Never for more than a couple weeks, at least. Well, I've had enough! Enough of the looks, enough of people telling me I have such a great 'personality', enough of simple tasks ...
"I often give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it"-alice in wonderland

That is how it's been since I let myself go during my first marriage and even moreso during the divorce. I'd tell myself "I really need to get healthy! I need to eat better! I need to get active". But it never happened. Never for more than a couple weeks, at least. Well, I've had enough! Enough of the looks, enough of people telling me I have such a great 'personality', enough of simple tasks being more difficult than they need be, ENOUGH of life being a fat girl. I haven't always been in this shape, and while I have no desire to go back to looking like I did in highschool, being as healthy as I was back then wouldn't be a bad thing.
I have been successful in every other task I have ever set myself to in my career, financially, and achieving travel goals. WHY do I struggle so much with my weight? With food? I have the knowledge, and the skills to conquer this...so why haven't I done it yet? Well, I have finally had enough and am in it to change my entire life. No more diets! No more giving up on myself! No more putting my needs last! I am in this for the life change I so desperately need, and noone and nothing is going to keep me from it!

Nolite te bastardes carborundorum. -Handmaid's Tale

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Member Since: 11/11/2010

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My Goals:
G 1-350 #'s -MET 27/12/10

G 2-300 lbs.

G 3-250 lbs.

G 4-fit that $5 dress I couldn't leave on the rack. MET 14/03/2011

G 5-Complete a half marathon without keeling over!

G 6-200 lbs. Go bungee jumping.

My Program:
-Eating properly

-counting needed calories vs. unneeded calories

-drink plenty of water (8+cups per day)

-make excercise part of daily life instead of a planned event.

-Try to start every day as a new day with a positive outlook.

Personal Information:
I'm 29 and live in Saskatchewan, Canada. Standing 5'10, with alot of hard work ahead of me, I am married to a wonderful man who is amazingly supportive of this whole journey. I have 3 large dogs(Jazmine, Brock, and Stuart) and you could not pay me enough to have children. We love to travel and experience new things such as ethnic cuisines, see new sights and experience new customs. As a practicing solitary wiccan, I truely enjoy interacting with the outdoors and nature in general. Blessed Be!

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WHY I'M DOING THIS
*airplane seats
*my health, I LOVE living!
*sexy underwear
*'young' swimwear
*go bungee jumping
*ride rollercoasters
*cheaper clothing
*high heels
*normal towel wrap
*because I'm better than what I've allowed myself to become!

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Member Comments:
STEPH-KNEE
8/15/2012 11:02:46 PM

Thanks so much for the comment on my Eacy Mac blog! emoticon As far as the self esteem issues because of being around negative people like that, I totally understand what you mean. I think being around such negativity in general made me a very negative person, but this past year I have finally turned that all around. I refuse to let a bunch of jerks change who I am. I basically have learned how to deal with them and how to just be left alone. I refuse to get sucked into their vicious games. I know it sounds like a lot to deal with, but I have an amazing job that I love that is my career for life, so I will not let them run me off. Just like I won't let them stand in the way of my weight loss. :D Thanks again for your support!



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SHAREDJOURNEY1
8/10/2012 6:48:13 PM

Thank you for your comment on my blog. I am going to remember those words "Am I better than this?" and "Am I going to let this defeat me? "Am I really going to let this defeat me?
Thanks again. Those words are a positive response to my internal whine of "I don't want to" and "it's too hard."
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MAE_VE
7/28/2012 11:46:09 AM

Thank you for your comment in my blog :) I will try your idea. It is a great one!



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S3XYDIVASMOM
7/19/2012 3:36:39 PM

Okay, I seriously offered no help when responding to your blog this morning. It did however jog a memory. I wrote a blog a long time ago on the same problem. Still, no solution, but at the time that I wrote it I thought I was, oh, so clever. Here is the web address for it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j
ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=3752652



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SAILORFAT7
7/16/2012 6:34:35 PM

Hey dude i'm back!



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