My new tattoo (first one)...a Phoenix...out of the ashes, I begin life again.
To remind me of how my ex reduced me to ashes and yet I was able to rise from it to live a new life
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My intro when i first joined Spark in January 2007...
I used to be really healthy, competed in triathalons and had tons of motivation.
Now after fertility meds, failed attempts to get pregnant, adopting 3 older children at once and dealing with their issues, teaching and getting my master's degree, there is not much left for me.
So much has changed since I first joined Spark....my children are all adults now (21, 22 & 23yo), I now have 2 grandchildren (4yo & 6 mos) and they bring me so much joy & happiness. I am happily divorced (husband of 22 years cheated on me with a married co-worker of his)...divorce took over 2 years, but I'm completely independent of him now!
My weight has gone down, the up, then down, then up & up, then down way too much and slowly back up again. My ex tried to micro-manage my weight & always made me feel as if I never looked good enough for him. There was always a direct correlation between my weight, my happiness & my marriage. That has all changed, though.
NOW IT'S FOR ME!!! For the first time in my entire life (my mother used to micro-manage my food, too), I do this for me and not to fit someone else's image of what I should look like. I'm doing this for me so I can finally be healthy and happy and truly love my body. I don't know yet what that will be, but I will know it when I have finally achieved it...the ideal me.
It won't be a number on the scale or the size of my clothes. It will be how I feel, how much energy I have. It will be about looking in the mirror at myself and not finding all the things about my body that I need to "fix. It will be about me being comfortable in my own skin, loving myself & being happy.
It will be about wearing anything I want in my closet, instead of what fits me at that point. It will be about getting rid of the span of sizes from 0 to 14+ because my weight is constantly going up and down. It will be about maintaining that end result when I finally achieve it so I can have a full wardrobe of clothes I feel comfortable and confident in, instead of a wardrobe full of "fat" & "skinny" clothes.
That journey has begun and I am so excited to see where it takes me...like a block of clay that will slowly be molded into who I was always meant to be, only this time, I am the artist...and I will choose how to shape myself into whatever I want me to be.
Take time for me!
To go slowly...slow and steady wins the race, right?
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Weoclome back Kay, i am sorry to hear about the pain you have endured but also see that you are a phoenix and rising from it all! I am not really active on Spark anymore but i am doing very well with making healthy choices and so my weight is under control. I know i can never relax about it and evry day is a matter of making those choices for the good to keep myself in this better place.
I look forward to seeing more of your progress!
974 days ago
Hi this is Carol from The Crockpot Team, wishing you a great day.
We have over a dozen new recipe threads as of Jan . . . so you can find and/or post chicken recipes on the Chicken Thread, and so on.
Check out the Weight Watchers Recipe Thread . . . I don't do WW but some of those looked really, really good when I posted them . . .
There are also diabetic recipe threads, vegetarian, etc. Hope you are doing well on your SparkJourney; you can do it!
2169 days ago
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LIFE is like an echo..............
YOUR choices always come back to YOU!!!!!!!!!!
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May you make healthy choices today so you are one step closer to a successful journey to your ultimate goal!
Please "copy and paste" this message and pass it along to at least 5 of your Spark friends for a little mid-week motivation! Perhaps your post will help them continue leading a healthy lifestyle. Your words of encouragement and support could motivate them to keep fit through exercise and nutritious food choices!!!!!
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PASS IT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2300 days ago
we miss you kay!
please know that you are thought of often and we hope you come on in and post again.
before we know it-it will be the season of lent again ! i don't have all the christmas decorations packed yet!
peace and blessings, fran
2929 days ago
kay, you continue to amaze me with your efforts. you keep losing , and fast. i miss your posts so please check in on our board sometime. take care, dear
3534 days ago