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Lynn, January 2005


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Hey! I'm Lynn. My tale is long! Growing up, I was skinny as a rail. Underweight, I'd have blown away in a strong wind. I was still underweight when I went to college and right at the bottom of my weight range when I joined the Army! As immodest as it sounds, I had a great figure! Almost perfect. I wasn't a big eater. Never had a problem with pushing the plate away when I was full. It really ticked my dates off when I left half of my meal behind. My standard response? Hey, I enjoyed what I ate! I wouldn't have enjoyed it if I stuffed myself!

Then I got pregnant! I discovered I had an appetite! I craved milk and anything made with milk. I would drink 5 or 6 glasses of milk at one meal. And I didn't drink low-fat or skim milk. Full fat, believe me! I gained over 60 pounds and of course, I didn't lose it right after I gave birth.

Finally, in the fall of 1989, I got up the courage to try and I succeeded. I lost 40 pounds and got down to 130. I was so proud of myself and I felt so good! I decided, well, I finally have my weight under control, I'm going to quit smoking! I quit smoking on March 9th, 1990. I used this program called Ciggarest and its first tip was, don't substitute eating for smoking! I did exactly the opposite of what it recommended and the weight just piled on. I kept trying to get it under control but couldn't. I just couldn't stop eating. For the first time in my life, I discovered I could eat past full, way, way past full! And despite my brief efforts to lose weight, the weight continued to pile on! I don't regret that I quit smoking, I never will but I do regret the weight problem I created for myself!

Fast forward to January 2004 and I have reached the 260s! I realized I had to get a handle on my weight. I wanted to be able to really enjoy my grandchildren and believe me, being too fat to move was a serious deterrent to truly enjoying them! I went on weight watchers and got down to 238 pounds. On April 11th, 2004, Easter Sunday, my sister and exercise partner died. It blew me away and I just couldn't get back to losing weight. I had lost my heart for it when I lost my sister, I guess. I imagine, I was eating to fill the hole that my sister's death left in my life.

I started again in January of 2005. By that time, I had sky rocketed up to 283 pounds! Talk about not being able to move. In March, having lost 17 of those pounds, I got sick with bronchitis and sinus stuff! I couldn't exercise and then, by the time I felt better, my plantar fasciitis was acting up! By the end of April, I had totally given up!

Well, in November, I had to get a chest x-ray because I had pneumonia! Fortunately, it was a mild case of pneumonia but the doctor also told me my heart was slightly enlarged. That really scared me. I didn't start my weight loss journey right away, I knew that trying during the holiday season probably wouldn't work well for me so I waited until January 3rd, 2006. I really did have one thing to be grateful for in all of this. Since I gave up trying in April, 2005, I really didn't gain any weight back so that was good.

I've been following my healthy eating plan since January 3rd, 2006. I have lost 24 pounds so far. I have gotten past two major obstacles, the anniversary of my sister's death and a major illness which put the kibosh again on my exercise. I still suffer from plantar fasciitis but I am learning to either live with the pain of walking or to go around it with alternate exercises, i.e. I still do my treadmill at the gym but I also spend a lot of time on the stationary bike, bicycling like crazy!

I'm proud of myself. Oprah Winfrey said on a show once that losing weight isn't about wanting to lose weight, it's about deciding to lose weight and I have decided that I'm going to lose weight, all of it. I'm going to be the grammy that my grandchildren deserve! I love my new, more active lifestyle and I plan to hold on to it! And I will!

Oh, as far as my pics go, I know they are a year older but I figured since I forgot to take pictures this time, they'd do. Oh, and the pants I'm wearing in the pictures are now so big, they almost fall off of me!


Well, now, I have lost 54 pounds. How amazing is that! I have overcome, or actually, I am overcoming another huge obstacle. I found out this past Thursday that the land I've been renting to put my trailer on has been sold to someone else. I've been given 30 days to get off the land! I am so stressed out and I'd LIKE to do what I've always done when I'm stressed, EAT!!!! But I'm not, I refuse to go back to old habits. I've come too far to go back now and I will not let the two blankety blanks who have done this to me, and ultimately the devil, get to me! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

Fast Forward to May 2017

I've been off of Sparkpeople for a long, long time. I managed to lose almost a 100 pounds by June 2007. Then I again got bowled over. My baby (and I stress baby) brother who was 13 years younger than me had a massive, massive coronary. He was the sickest patient in the CCU. Age 42 and he was sicker than the elderly patients. How could that possibly be? I changed his diapers, for a long time I was a second mother to him. I derailed and again, once more in my life, I gave up and went back to feeding my emotions. I've done WWs multiple times and lost each time only to give up and regain even more weight.

I now have high blood pressure, I'm prediabetic and have arthritis in more joints than I don't have arthritis in. I hurt constantly and I'm only 65. Know that may sound all to some of you but it really isn't. I weight 325 lbs.

I went to my wellness check up with my family doc with a new list of aches and pains. Before, when my knees started going, he'd said lose weight and use a cane. I did and things got better of course, again until I fell off the wagon once again. So this time I expected to hear the same thing, lose weight, use a cane. I even started ahead of time. But that's not what I heard. He looked at me and said, "You need to pursue weight loss surgery. If something doesn't change soon for you, you will be completely disabled, unable to move or do the things I know you enjoy." Not what I was expecting to hear. I had, many years before explored that option but my insurance didn't cover WLS at all. I reminded my doc of this and he said that a lot of insurance carriers were now covering weight loss surgery because of the high cost of covering all the problems of obesity. I'll admit, I hope that I would hear the same thing again. I didn't, my carrier now covers WLS.

So that's what I'm up to now. I'm on a medically supervised diet which if I fail at it, insurance can say I won't try after surgery and will deny me. Got appointments with more medical professionals then I've ever had. I will probably have a Roux n Y gastric bypass because the Vertical Sleeve tends to create or exacerbate Gerd (Gastro-esophageal reflux disorder) and I have that fairly badly. There's just something intimidating about having your innards rearranged that thoroughly.

I hate that I can't lose weight the old-fashioned way but I've been unsuccessful at every try. I've got to do something.

Member Since: 1/10/2006

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1. To find a healthy weight for a better me.

2. To exercise for fitness

3. To feel better about me!

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I basically do low calorie, low fat and exercise like a fiend!

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    The rice recipe posted today 3-31-08 looks very good, and reminds me of my mom's recipe that I grew up on.

    My only suggestion.... since reading VOLUMETRICS, is to add VOLUME with more vegetables!!! More to eat, more satisfying, and more nutrious!!! YUM!

    Thanks again, I have saved that one to make later!!
    3585 days ago
    HI LYNN! hope all is well, keep up the GOOD weork on your weightloss!! Bless you and have a GREAT day!!
    3588 days ago
    Hi Paula. I definitley do stretches for the plantar fasciitis. A good one to do after walking on the treadmill is to stand with just your toes and the ball of your feet on the treadmill with heels hanging off the treadmill and let your weight fall on your heels. Its a great stretch and keeps the walk from messing up the fascia. :0)
    Cursillo is great. My brother is on staff for one this weekend so I would love it if you'd pray for the Middle Mississippi Methodist Cursillo going this week. :)

    God Bless,
    4071 days ago
  • v PAULA_YO
    Good grief, I should proofread BEFORE I push send... the weekend was a Cursillo weekend not Cursios (sheesh, where is my brain sometimes???)
    4072 days ago
  • v PAULA_YO
    Hi Lynn,

    I've had a similar pattern to you of stopping exercising because of health issues (I get bad allergies that make me quite sick and I'm having a lot of problems with my monthly cycle with quite a lot of pain, etc.), also my schedule is all over the place so it's hard to do anything consistently. So it always seems like I'm starting again. Now I have to get another blood test to confirm that I do have a problem with my thyroid which would explain a lot of things including the pain I have because of exercise. I sure wish things could be easier. And like you I was as skinny as a stick till I had kids. LOL

    I also had plantar fasciitis. When I was working full-time I would go for long walks in my regular shoes (1.5" heals or flat sandles with no cushioning) during my lunch hour. Apparently THAT was a big no-no! It took me quite a while and some hunting on the internet to figure out what the problem was. What helped me most was staying in athletic shoes all the time, and stretching that tendon throughout the day (stand facing the wall with your hands on the wall, one leg stretched back with only the toes flat on the floor, pushing into the wall gently stretch the foot so the heal comes lower to the ground, release and do it again until you're satisfied that it is stretched out - I found the stretch more effective if I was barefoot)

    In a post you mnde at a group I'm checking out you mention Cursios and similar life-changing retreat weekends. I went on mine several years ago, and what a blessing it has been : )

    How is your move going? What a shock to have only thirty days to relocate - praying that you have found an even better place than where you were.

    Keep up the great work - you must be so pleased with your progress!


    P.S. If someone leaves you a comment and you want them to see your reply, you should go to their page to post it ~ that way they get an e-mail letting them know that someone has left them a message.
    4072 days ago
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