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it's an experiential thing
So, while meditating I've had a deep experiential moment of clarity and awakening. It's an experiential thing that I can't explain any more than can explain to a blind man the color blue. But I get it. I get my eating issues - my struggle with my weight and with food. The issues have presented to me. I finally get the emotional attachments, and really feel that I've let it go. It was the purist state of awareness that I've ever encountered and I'm truly at peace.
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So, while meditating I've had a deep experiential moment of clarity and awakening. It's an experiential thing that I can't explain any more than can explain to a blind man the color blue. But I get it. I get my eating issues - my struggle with my weight and with food. The issues have presented to me. I finally get the emotional attachments, and really feel that I've let it go. It was the purist state of awareness that I've ever encountered and I'm truly at peace.
Definitely there was a lot of baggage that needed to be sorted, examined, watched, and then, putting away judgment, accepting it. The beauty is I really know that those things can't hurt me, without my permission.
It occured to me then that I should follow a version of the soft man style of buddhist eating for a while. ~ That is eating for the sake of nutrition, not for pleasure.~ It's one of those things that I knew without "knowing". I've had my "ah-ha!" moment with food, and "getting" what food is and what it isn't. I (at this point) have had the "click" and understand what I've been doing with food and why I eat. Maybe now(?) I'm on the right path to living with food in a healthy way? Maybe now I can have a controlled relationship with it and use it what it's meant for: Energy. Not for pleasure, or comfort. Who knows?
So - no food after noon. Doing light calistentics, and meditating. We'll see where this path leads, I'm going to take it day to day - but even if the soft man style isn't permanent, (and ta-dah!, nothing is permanent!) I do know that I need to be mindful to stick to the middle way when it comes to eating/not eating... Metta
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Member Since: 1/27/2010
SparkPoints: 414
Fitness Minutes: 165
My Goals:
1.) 244 by March 1
2.) 225 May 1
3.) 199 June 15
4.) 174 Sept. 21 (bd!)
5.) 145 Jan. 1
Lofty goals that may change...but why not set them anyway?
My Program:
Soft man style of buddhist eating. No food after noon. Drinking lots of water and green tea. Started doing some exercises of squats, lunges, wall push-ups. Sitting and walking meditation. Stretching. Will increase activity slightly each week as I grow stronger. Slow and steady...
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