My first 5k!
Before pic, X-mas '09, 255 - almost at my fattest since high school at 280, eventually got to 260.
I have 26 pics in my gallery
November 27, 2011 Edit:
I wrote a very short intro below, so I'm not sure if you can sense the desperation in the tone, but I was so very desperate and hopeless for what I'd become. Now 1 year and 9 months later I have lost 132 pounds, have gone from a size 22/24 to a size 2/4 and have gone from sitting on my behind eating fast food to doing back to back Zumba and Body Pump classes and eating SO many delicious healthy foods. I've gone from being a sad, desperate, tired, OLD soul ...
November 27, 2011 Edit:
I wrote a very short intro below, so I'm not sure if you can sense the desperation in the tone, but I was so very desperate and hopeless for what I'd become. Now 1 year and 9 months later I have lost 132 pounds, have gone from a size 22/24 to a size 2/4 and have gone from sitting on my behind eating fast food to doing back to back Zumba and Body Pump classes and eating SO many delicious healthy foods. I've gone from being a sad, desperate, tired, OLD soul to.... ME. I've found ME again! Layla is not only beautiful inside and out, she's energetic, strong, confidant, sexy, dedicated, worthy, and slowly becoming the person she was always meant to be. I have started a blog in an effort to help others with their goals, and I am seriously thinking about going back to school for dietetic nutrition to pursue my passion for helping others be healthy. I cannot even begin to describe exactly HOW much I have grown in the past year and 9 months, but I can tell you that I'm done.
I'm done being the fattest woman in the room and therefore seeking desperately for someone larger than me every time I enter a room.
I'm done having to either patch or throw out pants because they wear through only right between my thighs from them constantly rubbing together.
I'm done worrying that a store won't have my size (even Dillard's has size 12s!!!)
I'm done heading straight to plus size departments.
I'm done being the slowest and most out of breath in a group.
I'm done feeling unfeminine because I can't cross my legs.
I'm done thinking "I can't ____".
I'm done worrying about stretch marks getting worse or not fading. These are battle scars folks!
I'm done worrying about whether or not my boyfriend wants me or is attracted to me. ( I know for sure he IS attracted to me *wink wink*, and if that ever changes, I know I'm not lacking on anything and I deserve the best!)
I'm done gorging, appeasing the sadness and filling the emptiness with food.
I'm done eating like I'll never be able to eat again.
I'm done listening to my head when it comes to food... now I'm listening to my body.
I'm done just "having beautiful hair and eyes and face", I have a lovely body starting to shape out of what was once a mass of fat.
I'm done making excuses.
I'm done feeling sorry for myself.
I'm DONE being the fat girl.
I really don't know what to say. I want to lose weight, I'm tired of "having beautiful hair and eyes and face" but never BEING beautiful. I'm tired of fatigue and feeling sick when I eat, and looking at food like it will get me. I don't want to be a diabetic or have high blood pressure. I want to "live long and prosper", literally! I don't want to feel inferior to "pretty" girls when I know damn well I'm just as good as them. It's time for a change.
***EDIT as of March 9, 2011***
So, I've learned a lot of things about myself this past year, more than anything I've learned that I'm a LOT stronger than I've ever given myself credit for. I've learned that I really don't appreciate myself for what I'm worth. I am amazing inside and out, I can do things now that I never thought possible, like wiggle my butt and not feel like a complete fool! (I SO LOVE my Zumba!!!) I don't know exactly what weight I'll end at, but I know this journey will never end, I've enjoyed this process, through tough times and all. This past year has really been miraculous for me, I'm healing inside and I'm working on the outside. I thank God for answering my prayers and giving me the dedication and will-power to see this through and I'm still not completely "done" yet, despite being a Done Girl! Also, I may have reconsidered the plastic surgery thing... my body is showing beauty I never thought possible... although really I would love to have the perky body that 25 year olds have so we'll see. Keep on rocking SparkPeople! If I can do this, so can you!
| Pounds lost: 130.0
Member Since: 2/7/2010
Fitness Minutes: 32,243
I want to be at a size that I feel right at,
*Trying* to drink 8 glasses of water a day.
Staying within 1100-1600 calories depending on how much I've worked out for the day.
Get at least 60 minutes of cardio 5 days a week, maybe 6, and yoga on my off days. Continuing to challenge myself to do better performance wise.
Do 2-3 days of strength training a week in addition to my cardio.
Really ENJOY eating healthy, loving the feeling of being satisfied, but not full, getting to the point where sugar and grease makes me feel sick so I don't even want it! Enjoying how working out makes me feel, thriving off of the rush of feeling my blood pumping and the sweat dripping down my face.
I'm 27, and my name is Lealah (pronounced Layla). I enjoy computers, reading, movie marathons, cooking, running! (who woulda thought!!!???), eating, teaching Zumba, Body Pump, camping, hiking and any outdoorsy physical activites.
The Time Traveler's Wife (the book, not the movie)
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
I just recently read "2012: War of the Souls" and it was totally disturbing in a fascinating kinda way: I loved it! By Whitley Strieder, I highly recommend it, if you like weird Sci-Fi type stuff.