So I joined SparkPeople right before going to college and then kind of gave up on it. I'm now ending my college life and getting ready to graduate. I realize that if I don't change my weight and eating habits now then I never will. My brother battled with severe weight gain and was able to lose a lot back in high school. I guess I compare myself to him.
September 2012: A year ago tomorrow, I moved to NYC to try and start a career in publishing. In that year I've struggled personally with my weight, the loss of my beloved godmother, unemployment and some severe smashing of my expectations. It's been on of the toughest years of my life so far. That's really not saying a lot. In the last week, I've focused so much on how my life isn't where I want it to be. Last year, I thought, "hey! you're moving to New York. You're going to lose the weight while you look for a job (a job, which of course, you will get within two months of moving there!"
Six months after moving to NYC, I still lived with my aunt and uncle, had only just started a part-time job, and had, in fact, gained more weight. Six months since then my job is now stable enough that I can support myself. I've started being accountable for my actions. Although, a lot of my struggle in the last month is accepting the things that are out of my control. In the last week as the disappointment of still being overweight, still living with my aunt and uncle and still not having a full-time job washed over me, I reflected on the things that HAD gone right. No, I didn't have a full-time job but I had a job that I could support myself on and loved. I hadn't lost ALL the weight I wanted, but I had lost 25 pounds. Yes, I still lived with my aunt and uncle, but within the next few weeks, that won't be the case anymore. I have been blessed in the past year and have gained a lot of autonomy not despite the struggles I faced but BECAUSE of them. I'm slowly making these realizations, and I'm looking forward to what the next year of my life will bring.
June 2011: So, I got this spark page back in like 2008 or so SparkPeople tells me. I was never motivated enough before--I needed my brother or other circumstances to motivate me to do anything. I fell into a pretty deep depression after I returned from studying in London for 4 months. On top of it I was back in a dorm situation which is not conducive to taking off the pounds and was having health problems (I couldn't keep anything down until my cafeteria closed and so would run to MacDonald's when I finally got hungry around 10 p.m.). Instead of making healthy choices to try and get me out of my funk I turned to my job as a reporter for my campus newspaper for comfort. I became a pretty good reporter but lost sight of maintaining my weight loss from my time studying abroad.
Come my senior year of college and I'm named editor in chief of my newspaper. I loved my time there but late nights, a heavy course load and bad menu choices had me packing on 40 lbs by the end of the year. Now I'm graduated and determined to lose the weight. I found a workout buddy, am becoming accountable with my weight and eating habits and am looking forward to taking off the pounds!
Short term Goals:
185 (Lowest weight of my adult life)--
Long Term Goals:
1. Keep the weight off.
2. Different coping mechanism other than food.
3. Be confident.
4. My godmother recently passed away, so I'd like to be able to wear the ring she left me someday.
Cardio exercise 3 times a week (usually an hour long walk)
Strength training 2-3 times a week
| current weight: 194.0
HI I was looking for a fitness buddy and stumbled upon your page but lo and behold you already have a fitness buddy. I just want to say that I too want to work in publishing but had so many setbacks. Your story is almost similar to mine.
I am praying you reached or have already reached your goals. =)
1090 days ago
we have really similar weight goals and you're adorable! i'm going to add you, i hope that's okay! :)
1315 days ago
Yeah...it woulda been an improvement but ya know, they wouldn't even have to spend more, just put more thought into it. Like what about a picnic or bike ride on one of those bikes for two, what are they called....surreys? or he coulda cooked for you....why don't they make it MORE?
1440 days ago
Hope the Celebration was DONE just right!
1446 days ago
Happy BELATED Birthday, DONE GIRL
Happy FOURTH OF JULY America is ruled by the sign of Cancer. We are Baseball and Apple Pie, and America feeds and fights for the underdog all over the world.
Sun in Cancer: Cancer is a good sign for a woman to be since it is the sign of the mother. Cancer gets along with Scorpio, Taurus, Pisces, Virgo and Capricorn. Cancer can have problems with her breast. She loves to save for a rainy day and she can keep secrets.
You live though your emotions and feelings and can't be reasoned with when you're upset. It's hard for you to separate your feelings from your thoughts. You're mothering, sustaining and nurturing, with a strong attachment to your mother and your home. You have a highly developed protective and defensive instinct about material and domestic security. You feel complete when you're able to lavish protectiveness on your family and you'll do whatever is necessary to establish and maintain that security. You tend to retreat inside yourself when you feel threatened in any way. You're often at the mercy of your moods, which are subject to change due to the atmosphere around you, which you absorb without realizing it. You need to control the tendency to moodiness, intolerance and excessive emotions. You suffer from emotional insecurity until you center yourself beyond your ego/ personality. Everything you do is latent and hidden: no issue is clear or direct, not action is forthright or direct. You are extremely intuitive and psychic and your first instincts are usually right. You're extraordinarily sensitive and fear ridicule. When you're hurt, you may behave in a nonsensical manner and, at times, you can be extremely childish and stubborn. You seek sympathy from others and don't realize how self-centered and selfish you can be. You appear gentle and tranquil, but your inner thoughts are difficult to understand, even for you. You're well intentioned, but emotionally vacillating. You have a deep sense of responsibility to others. Physically, slow energy flow can make you lazy and you'll have poor circulation later in life. Due to your powerful imagination, all thoughts of illness may manifest as illness. You'll suffer from ulcers and digestive problems if you don't discuss things that worry you. You must be first with those you love or you're unhappy, and you keep a tenacious hold on loved ones. You're concerned about what others think of you and can have a great deal of personal vanity about your appearance. You can be quite egotistical and won't joke about yourself. You're neat and clean and dislike any activity that creates a mess. You seek to avoid any type of discomfort at all costs. You're diplomatic, have an excellent memory and love to roam. You seldom fail to achieve your goals even if you have to be manipulative. At times, you may shun responsibility but can be punctual, exact, and efficient as required. You're a master of passive resistance and hate being told what to do or how to do it. You tend to live in "the good old days." As a parent, you're warm and loving, but can be smothering and refuse to let your child grow up. Your effort to keep your family together may actually drive them apart. As a child, you're tender, sweet, loving, helpful, extremely affectionate and easily hurt. It's better to discipline a Cancer child by appealing to the home-loving instinct. Sensationalism can hurt your sex life. You need to add reason and discrimination to your life and cultivate courage to say "Yes" and "No" at appropriate times.
KEYWORDS: protectively, sensitively, emotionally
KEY PHRASE: I feel.
1452 days ago