One of many Head Shots
Part of my goal...Fit into this dress again!
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Thanks for all of the kinds words and messages...and goodies! It is wonderful to hear all the kind words of encouragement that have been posted and messaged to me!
I admit...I have completely fallen off of the "wagon". I quit tracking, I took a break from SP, and I quit worrying about exercise. It has been my biggest mistake to date. By taking a "break" I allowed myself to go back to my old routine and even gain back 15 lbs that I had completely lost.
Now I am starting over from the beginning. I am going to do what I enjoy and focus on what I am eating.
I want to begin focusing on eating food that is full of flavor, rather than quick meals that leave me feeling gross.
I want to begin working on running. I have always wanted to be a runner, finally it will become a reality. I was always the last one around the track in high school, and the one that NEVER joined sports teams. I used to figure skate when I was young, and ski. This year I had a horrible experience. My DH and I bought new skis, however, they didn't have boots to fit over my calves. I was mortified. I want to be able to strap on skis for this coming season. I want to be able to do those things that I used to enjoy. I don't want my weight to be a factor. I want it to be MY decision whether I do something or not.
I have decided that it is time to focus on my health and my weight.
My entire life I have worried and taken care of everyone else around me, never focused on my needs.
It's interesting how in school, I remember thinking I was fat. However, I wasn't even close to fat. I was always in decent shape. About 9 years ago I went through some really hard times and I truly believe that that is where my struggles with weight began. I was in a severe accident that resulted in my having surgery done. I wasn't able to do walk or climb stairs comfortably, so I stopped. I had it in my head that it hurt, and the "I can't" saying stuck in my head for a long time.
After my initial surgery, I was on crutches for approx. 6 months. Throughout that time I was wearing a size 7 pants, which hadn't happened for a few years (normally I wore a size 9). It felt great! Then after I got back on my feet (so to speak) the weight started to creep on, I got very depressed.
My doctor finally diagnosed me, but I didn't understand why and how I went from happy to depressed. I was told it was due to head trauma in my accident. I didn't believe it. However, after much research and waiting for far too long, I have learned that in fact depression and mood changes are normal results of head trauma. (Among many others).
I have always struggled with low self-esteem, but the negative feelings seemed to multiply and I was not able to control them. I started to relay on food as my "shoulder to cry on".
Then, on top of it all, I went through some very bad relationships. Now, looking back, I feel like I was so busy relying on others to make me feel better, that I totally lost myself.
I realize that this is going to be a lot of hard work, and I am the type of person who tends to give up when I don't see miracle results. However, I think I have my head in the right place.
I think part of my journey is not just losing weight, but learning about who I am and what I like. Finding myself again so to speak.
I might not have a huge weight loss number at the moment, but I know I will. I have so many things that I need to work on, it is a one thing at a time situation. And while I am working on everything else, I am also working on my health and weight.
I am done with excuses! I need to keep up my focus and keep up my spirits.
There are so many good things have happened in the past 8 months in my life, in a positive way. With a good positive attitude, things will only continue to get better every day.
My Accomplishments To Date:
I have been a non-smoker since December '07.
I have been off of my medication since May '08.
I have graduated from college May '08
I have accepted a new job as an Interpreter (June '08)
I have moved out onto my own (August '08)
I have created, and stuck with a budget (September '08)
I have begun paying off my debt (September '08)
I have completed 60 min's on the elliptical (November '08)
I have completed 60 min's Ball Class. (November '08)
I will try home video (FOD) workouts (Started P90X)
I will do 20 min's on the treadmill (September '08)
I will do 60 min's on the treadmill (September '08)
SUCCESS... 10 lbs GONE FOREVER May '08
SUCCESS... 12 lbs GONE FOREVER Nov '08
SUCCESS... 15 lbs GONE FOREVER Jan '09
SUCCESS... 20 lbs GONE FOREVER Apr '09
SUCCESS... 33 lbs GONE FOREVER Aug '09
I married my wonderful hubby (August '09)
Became debt free (August '10)
Upper Arm 16.25" 16.25"
Thigh 29.00" 30.00"
Calf 18.75" 19.25"
Upper Arm 16.25" 16.25"
Thigh 26" 28"
Calf 19" 20"
Upper Arm 16" 16"
Thigh 25.5" 26"
Calf 18.25" 18.25"
I will accomplish the following:
I will complete a running (training) program.
I will do the P90X program.
I will try spinning (biking)
I will try rowing
I will try Yoga
I will try Pilates
I will succeed in losing 40 lbs
I will succeed in losing 50 lbs
I will succeed in losing 60 lbs
I will succeed in losing 70 lbs
I will succeed in losing 80 lbs
I will succeed in losing 90 lbs
I will succeed in losing 100 lbs
NO MORE I CAN'T...ONLY I CAN, I WILL, I DID, I SUCCEEDED!
I want to lose weight and feel comfortable with myself again.
*Drink 8 Glasses of Water Daily
*Maintain calories to daily limits
*Eat 3 servings of fruit and 5 servings of veggies a day
*Do 15 minutes of exercise each day
*Do more photography
My focus right now is:
Drinking 8 glasses of water/day
Begin adding exercise to my week
Keep calories within limits
Eating at home, and lots of flavor.
I am from Ontario and now live in New York (Buffalo area).
I moved after marrying my husband last year.
I have always thought of myself as fat, but looking back I never was...Until now. Now I feel like a skinny person until I see my own reflection. I feel uncomfortable in my skin. This will all change. I can do this!
| current weight: 247.5
Happy Belated Birthday, DONE GIRL.
The Sagittarius girl can have a weight problem because Jupiter loves to expand, but she also, can be a great athlete as she is a "Fire" sign with lots of energy and drive, so what she is depends on her choice. She loves being outdoors as she wanted to be like her Dad growing up. You could say she was more of a "tomboy" than the type who liked to be in the house, thus she doesn't make a good "stay-at-home-mom" type. She has a high IQ and makes a good teacher, or anyone who works with animals. She loves to spend money on others but then she is lucky and can make a lot of money. She has to watch her hip area as it can be her health issue. She is a person who loves to laugh, but know she tells things "straight from the horse's mouth" so she can be blunt and lack tack in her answers, but she is never vicious or revengeful. She will tell you straight out what is bothering her and get it over with. She gets along well with Libra, Aries, Aquarius, Leo and Gemini.
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178 days ago
Happy belated birthday, Done Girl!! I hope you had a wonderful day!
180 days ago
I hope your day was a groovy one!
180 days ago
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!! Hope your special day was a great one!
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