Just a snapshot on the run...
Just a little chilly....
Just the double chin I've recently acquired and would desperately like to get rid of...
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I'm a 40 year old wife, mom and volleyball coach. I'd desperately love to be fit, but somehow wanting it has not meant a darn thing in the face of DOING it! My personal discipline has been lacking, to say the least. In my heart, I enjoy being outside and being active. I have dug myself a physical ditch that has created an adversarial relationship with those two things: being outside and being active. I'm not after a number on the scale, I'm after fitness. I want to feel more "present" in my own skin. Right now, it feels like this out of control shell that ripples with each movement like a pond ripples from the disturbance of a rock. UGH- it makes me cringe at the thought... jumping, running, even some quick walking, will initiate a shake that feels unattractive to my core! My strength, regardless my weight, has always been something I could count on. Maybe consider it a "consolation", even. Well, now, that's not the case. I am not only fat, but extremely weak to boot! For the first time in my life, I'm having to say, "I can't do that" to a number of things, as a result of my poor health choices.
I suppose who I am is also a person seeking change. And desperately afraid that I won't and that this will get worse. I read an article, and the person mentioned SparkPeople. So, I am here. Desperate for something different and terrified that I won't do it. Lord, help me, please.
- get under 200 lbs and maintain it for life
- be regularly (at least every two weeks) active with 5k's, or hiking, or biking, or canoeing, or anything outdoors
Currently I don't really have a "program". I'm setting up my SparkPeople page in hopes that it will help me establish accountability and motivation that result in a change of my actions, habits, and thought process. I'm starting with baby steps- get moving daily and modify food intake.
I was raised in Louisville, Ky. I moved around the US from 17-26 and now call NC Home. I love it here!
I like to read.
I like crafty stuff, but am NO Martha Stewart.
I have a heart for Christ and seek to be a better person through drawing nearer to Him... I am regularly unsuccessful at this. Thankful for his grace!
| current weight: 235.9