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My healing journey

I've been overweight my whole life. I was a chubby child, teenager and young woman. I liked to walk and workout, but I also liked to eat! There were times in my life when I lost weight and felt more attractive and fit, but the norm for me was to gain weight whenever life became hard or a love relationship went wrong. Food was my resource for handling pain, and exercise stopped once I became depressed and started overeating again.

That's been a lifelong pattern, until 5 years ...
I've been overweight my whole life. I was a chubby child, teenager and young woman. I liked to walk and workout, but I also liked to eat! There were times in my life when I lost weight and felt more attractive and fit, but the norm for me was to gain weight whenever life became hard or a love relationship went wrong. Food was my resource for handling pain, and exercise stopped once I became depressed and started overeating again.

That's been a lifelong pattern, until 5 years ago, at the age of 50, I started taking a long, hard look at my life. I realized that I was headed for an early grave because I didn't have a real reason for living. I was just surviving. My health was going downhill, I didn't have a lot of joy in my life and not much hope for things to improve. I felt like a real failure. I couldn't see the good things I had done over the years, but all the mistakes I made were crystal clear and I kept beating myself up for them. I didn't love myself. I was my own worst enemy.

I had a spiritual awakening one day. I was walking thru a beautiful neighborhood (trying to lose weight again) and just felt a wave of peace and this wonderful sense of oneness with God, with nature, and with the world. I felt God telling me that I was exactly where I needed to be and that the mistakes I made were part of my growing up. I learned that I was supposed to keep moving on with my life and to be the best me I could be. I was on the path to cleaning up my life and changing from a woman who had little hope to one who was full of it. I have never been the same since.

Every day I spend time connecting with nature, with God. I have up days and down days...the only difference is that "normal" is now peace, not despair. I have some painful days, but eventually I move back to a place of peace. That's where I am most of the time, and I'm thankful. I have a deep sense of caring for others, and I work every day to renew my spirit, to stay strong and optimistic. My connection to God means everything to me. Life has become a real positive journey that I enjoy taking. Most days I wake up with a smile on my face and looking forward to the day. I hope to live that way for the rest of my life.

I fully intend to reach my goal weight, and to be a healthy and fit 50+ year old (I'll be 56 in a few months!) but my primary desire is to continue to grow and move forward in every way. I've been given another chance at life and I'm living it 100%!

Jae
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Member Since: 7/31/2006

SparkPoints: 24,112

Fitness Minutes: 44,502

My Goals:
My new goals are to renew my daily workout, adding yoga to deal with stress, and to get more sleep. My weight goal is to lose the extra pounds I gained in 2011.

My Program:
I'm eating lighter, and eating more vegetables and fruit. I'm also drinking a lot more water. It also helps to talk about things with other supportive people. I can't do it alone, thank God I don't have to!

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I live in Georgia, one of the most beautiful states in the US.

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Follow your heart, and live life fully, enjoying every day. You will never regret it.

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12/30/2012 6:59:12 PM

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12/14/2012 11:14:04 AM

The mind is like a clock that is constantly running down. It has to be wound up daily with good thoughts.”--Fulton J. Sheen

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KICKINGIT@56
11/24/2012 6:58:53 PM

Hi Jae,

Just stopped by to see how you are doing on your healthy lifestyle journey. I see that you are making fantastic progress on your ticker and are piling up those trophies for consistency, perfect attendance and fitness minutes. Good for you, spark friend! Now I know the holidays can be a tough time to stay on track, especially when it's cold, but don't let that deter you. Keep logging in and checking with your teams and friends and we will make it through together with God's grace. I hope you had a blessed Thanksgiving and will have a safe and peace-filled Christmas season. Remember that Jesus is the reason for our rejoicing.

God bless,

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11/20/2012 5:09:10 PM

"The greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion. The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being."--Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama




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