Me June 08 weight 245 lbs
All of us in Colorado June 08
my 3 beautiful children
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Welcome to my page...I am a Wife, Mother, and CNA who has gone back to work about 2 yrs ago after being a stay at home mom for a few years. I have gained and lost and regained the same weight over and over again. My heighest all time weight was 300 lbs. My lowest recent weight was about 3 yrs ago and I got down to 217 lbs, it seems it only lasted a minute and I was back at my old habits and gained it all back and I am now at 263 lbs!! I truly would love to get down to 200 lbs for now. But I want to do it in a healthy and natural way, where my kids learn good eating and activity habits from me and not to use food as a best friend whom I go to when I am happy, sad, confused, annoyed, etc....etc......but to use it to fuel my body. I am a procrastinator when it comes to exercise.....call me Mrs. Excuse!! I can find an excuse to not exercise and I have done that for a long time. I feel like a failure at times as I can't seem to commit to anything for long term. I begin to question my ability to commit, what in the world am I so afraid of? Failing? Rejection? YEP...all of the above. I think my friends and family get tired of hearing me say..."I started this new diet and......" or..." I am going to work out EVERYDAY". I get discouragd when Life gets in the way of my plan of attack. I can plan like a pro.....but if something comes up...(kids get sick, car breaks down, work schedule interferes...etcc...) I totally freak out and my eating and exercising are the first things that suffer. I throw myself into what needs to be done...or what I "think" needs to be done 100% and I leave myself with 0% attention for myself. Then I am cranky and less tolerant with the ones who love me, my wonderful family. I take it out on them, when in fact it is all my fault and I should be mad at just ME!
This is why I have re-committed to taking care of myself. The old saying is true, "If momma ain't happy, then nobody is happy"!! I live this everyday and I am tired of not being happy. Nobody can do this for me, I must do it on my own.....that in itself is very scary and very lonely to me. I want support, I want help, I want encouragement.....but I can't rely on someone else giving it to me.....I must learn to Support, Encourage, Help and depend on myself and my own ability to take care of myself. So here goes.....today is August 31st, 2008 and I am revamping my life one baby step at a time.
GOAL #1 is to write down on an index card my goals that I have posted here so I can look at them all the time.
GOAL #2 is to become happy with exercise.....Right now I struggle each day to do it...but I want to make it a part of my day just like breathing and eating...it has to be a MUST have for me. I will post blogs daily on what I did and how it made me feel.
GOAL # 3 Have more fun, be less serious and enjoy life...be spontaneous and not so worried about if their is dust on things......(I am a clean freak and I hate it sometimes).
So starting with a list of 3 things I want to acheive over the next few months is a new beginning for me, I won't be perfect and I can't expect myself to be perfect, but I must try my best to do my best everyday in every aspect of my life.
There it is....me in a nutshell....I hope someday I can motivate someone to just start small, I hope I can someday call myself a success and Love Myself Again.
My goal first and foremost is to Love myself again. To love the skin I am in. I will never be supermodel thin and beautiful but I can get healthy and teach my kids to be healthy people too.
1. SIMPLIFY my life...use sparkpeople menu planning to help me plan and shop for easy, cost friendly meals for my entire family.
2. MOVE my body more.
3. POSITIVITY only...no more letting negativity suck me into the mire of nothingness.
4. FUN....have more of it!
I love to read, crochet, play cribbage & play with my kids.
Love to camp, fish & hike too. Enjoy spending time with family and friends and just having fun whenever possible.
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| current weight: 238.0
welcome to 40somthing, i can relate to the weight battle and i tell people i am an all acational eater!, i started at 320 changed my eating started getting out more,went to 199 got in a slum gained back to 238 last week at 234 i weigh in thurs. i've been eating right and starting back walking,getting out of the house (it helps my selfestm.) so im learning to stay on track!i hope we can all help each other on this weight loss battel!
3188 days ago
Just wanted to stop by and see how things were going for you. Cograts on the weight loss so far. Have a great day. karen
3188 days ago
Thank you for the comment on my sparkpage. Yes, I too am still working at getting back up and on track after the holidays and all. I am doing better, but still not where I want to be. Been having some medical issues, and was in the hospital last week with REALLY HIGH blood pressure and a KILLER headache. Was at the doctors 3 times last week besides. Have to go for a stress test this Friday, so wish me luck. I just see all this as a wake-up call to get my act in gear. I'm on blood pressure medication now, so just have to adjust to it. Take care.
3195 days ago
thank you. Yes i am happy i did go down a little but anything is wondeful :). Tim just took of to hemlock ski resort to play with his band but i stayed home becauseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it is snowing like crazyyyyyyyyyyyyy. So olivia has a friend over for a sleep over and i am just relaxing. Roads are not good right so i do worrie about tim and his band friends going, i love him so much , he treats me like a queen. Have a nice day and weekend girl and dont work to hard k. xoxox Janne
3197 days ago
Hi just wondring how you are doing? What have you been up to? Have a great day, if you need me i am here.xoxox janne
3199 days ago