I am 52 years old, happily married for 22 years, and the mother of two. My daughter is 21 and away at college. My son is 18 and a senior in high school. I also have a young golden retriever named Jesse who is joined at my hip. For half my life, I did not have a weight problem. I was very thin, ate only when I was hungry, and worked out constantly. It did not occur to me that although I was thin, I had horrible eating habits that would eventually catch up with me...and they did. I pretty much lived on diet coke, canned soup, oreo cookies, and chocolate. Not exactly healthy, but it worked for me then.
Once I married and started my family, I found that my very limited diet did not provide enough energy to get through the day, nor was I able to continue working out. There was so much less time for myself, and plenty of opportunity for guilt when I felt like I wasn't doing all I could for everyone else. I found myself cooking more and eating more than I ever needed to, more than running around after two childen required. Before long I found myself gaining more and more weight and feeling less and less able to do anything about it. I lost conrtol, or at least any motivation to really try to do anything about it.
I did eventually make some half-hearted attempts to lose weight when it started to become more and more obvious that I wasn't just plump. I joined one of those weight loss programs that make you purchase prepackaged food. I was always starving and found I was stockpiling meals from days I just didn't feel like eating their meals. I couldn't let them know I had skipped a day, so I would stick it in the pantry. Eventually, I quit and that set the tone for many more diets to come. The only one that I really had any measure of success was Weight Watchers. I wasn't as hungry on that and had an easier time following it, but yet still managed to give up. I'd start out with good intentions and then slip-up one day. One day would turn into two and before I knew it, I'd be completely off. Without going into detail of every diet I've tried, suffice to say that there were plenty and none worked.
Fast forward to now. After spending a lot of time looking inward and trying to figure myself out, I finally feel ready to stay committed and make a change that will last. Maybe it's age and how all this extra weight makes being older all that much harder, maybe it's realizing more and more the risks I'm taking with my health when I see so many around me dealing with health issues, maybe it's realizing that I'm tired of feeling tired and achy even when I've barely been active enough to feel that way, or maybe it's realizing how often I've managed to avoid having my picture taken at so many family occasions which makes me feel like I really wasn't there. More than likely it's just that all these things and more have finally come together to make me realize how all this extra weight and loss of control have impacted my life and made me ready to stop saying "I will do this" to " I am going to do this".
Well, that's about it Thanks for taking the time to read this.
July 10, 2011
I'm back and ready to recommit to my goals. I have had more stress since this past December than I ever thought I would......return to my job, losing one of my best friends, and facing what seems like one major health crises after another with my husband.
All the positive changes I made last year were soon forgotten. Although, I am still struggling with the loss of my friend, and my husband's health crises is far from over, I have had time to regroup mentally by being home for the summer. Just having this time has helped me remember all that I want and need to lead a healthy and productive life.
Besides my other goals that I had last year, I've added one to the list. I want to lose enough to be able to donate a kidney so that my husband is able to receive a transplant sooner.
Basically, I am going to use common sense when choosing my foods, eat mindfully , and KEEP MOVING!
My program is very simple right now. I am wearing my pedometer daily and logging at least 10,000steps daily most of these steps are accomplished by walking the dog for at least an 1hour a day. I'm eating healthy well balanced meals mindfully. I choose foods that are mostly nonprocessed. I write down what I eat daily as well as the total steps I've taken. Right now, I don't want to get hung up on too much detail in what I write so I don't get overwhelmed. I am drinking at least 8 glasses of water. I am taking vitamins and the supplements my doctor suggested.
I have a teaching degree but am not currently teaching. I live in the northwest suburbs of Chicago. I love to read, garden, and watch hgtv and foodnetwork.
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