I know you're feeling down right now and think,"why bother?". But this WILL pass if you just hang on. Sometimes that's the best we can do, just hang on. don't worry about making progress . That will come back later. Maybe its a comfort that others have felt as bad as you do but given time, things turn around. Your teammates are rooting and praying for you.
Missing your presence with Scarlet SEALS. I hope life is giving you more positives in its busyness than negatives. Remember YOU are worth the better choices that you make and that flows right over to your family as you care for them (and chauffeur and worry and care and cheer and attend.....)