So much of this is mental, its scary. I'm starting to look in the mirror, and with clothes on, really like what I see. I just need to keep telling myself that people also see that. No matter what I look like under them (bumps, rolls, whatever), with clothes on, I look pretty good.
It is nice though, to hear from someone that they've been there, and reached goal, and still felt fat. I'm glad you at least understand.
Good luck on getting back to goal....you've done it before, you can definitely do it again!