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I am finally at the end of the process to get my surgery for weight loss. I have one pre-surgical clearance left and I will be surgery bound. The surgery I have chosen to have is the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy. I have chosen this particular surgery because it still leaves a lot of the work up to me and it doesn't rearrange anything in my stomach, it simply removes a part of my stomach. There is a lot of success and it is less risky and there are way less complications as well. I ...
I am finally at the end of the process to get my surgery for weight loss. I have one pre-surgical clearance left and I will be surgery bound. The surgery I have chosen to have is the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy. I have chosen this particular surgery because it still leaves a lot of the work up to me and it doesn't rearrange anything in my stomach, it simply removes a part of my stomach. There is a lot of success and it is less risky and there are way less complications as well. I am very happy with my decision and will keep everyone updated.
Today and for the last few weeks I am down and have been down. I have gotten now to where I can hardly do anything on my own. I need help for everything now. It is horrible and I don't even know where to begin to become independent again. I don't know if I even can. Everyone is pushing me to get the surgery but it won't change my mind and my inside feelings. So I fear it won't be a permanent thing. I am lost here I literally don't know where or how to begin,
My name is Candie Payne. I am a 45 yr. old mother of four grown children and the wife to a wonderful man who is my best buddy in all the world. I have been a member of SP in some form for the last 3 yrs. And I must say I believe without it I would be a much heavier person at this time. I have been a yoyo'er since I was 8 yrs old.
I feel much better today. I have made some great friends and have made a few small changes so I feel like I am back on track and ready to get at it!!!!
I am lost again. I always seem to end up here. I Know what I need to do, How to do it, I just can't seem to DO IT!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Last night I figured out how to to delete a spark page so I finally only have one page now. I just didn't want to be so scattered! I have decided I've got to get serious. I read and am now re-reading "The Spark" and it has helped so much especially as far as setting goals and being specific. Of course the fact that I lost 28.8 lbs and didn't know it for months was a big inspiration too...:-) My biggest challenge has been having the money to eat properly or regularly considering we have been fairly homeless for the last 2 years. We are now living with my daughter Amanda who is an amazing individual and someone I work to be more like. She is my daughter but staying here still makes me homeless in a sense. Not to in anyway take away from the gratitude I feel but simply to say it is not my home. Also there is a tremendous amount of guilt that comes with staying here, as she works so hard and has three jobs and now is stuck with her parents again lol. At any rate I have made a real true detailed plan with the help of The Spark and I am ready!!
| current weight: 386.0
Member Since: 9/11/2008
Fitness Minutes: 186
To lose 240lbs by 8.3.13 Starting with:
Losing 42 lbs by 12.21.10
To open a spiritual life center.
To be a better wife & mother.
To be able to work again.
To walk daily.
To drink two large bottles of water daily.
To go to bed by midnight.
To get up by 10:00 AM.
To meditate daily again.
To lose 10% of my weight at a time by tracking everything I eat and drink as well as every bit of exercise I do. Also by making small but permanent changes and mostly by working on me being my own best friend, from the inside to change my way of thinking and my standard behaviors.
I was born in Californian but now and forever call Idaho home. I am a Spiritual Life Coach, a Light-Worker, a Psychic Counselor, a Tarot Reader and a Spiritual Empath. I am 45 and have been over weight since age 8. I have 4 beautiful children and the best Buddy in the whole world!
My biggest dream in life is to open a Spiritual Life Rehab Center where people can visit to become who they were meant to be.
My second biggest dream is to own my own small ranch horses and all.