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  • v KING_SLAYER
    Hey sis :)

    I'm still here, still not losing weight, still not blogging, still feeling like a total failure. But I am still here! I hope life's been treating you very well up there in Canada-land!
    27 days ago
  • v JULIAMOONCHILD
    To enjoy what we have in front of us, or at least what is within our reach, is a decision we make - or - one we choose not to make.

    Seems so simple.

    For the past two years, due to an illness that drastically changed mine and my husband's lives,(my husband had strokes which totally changed his personality, as well as the way he had always happily lived his life), I have continued, it seems, to endlessly ponder each day all that I must do tomorrow and how I might possibly get it all done. An uncompromising stress greets me each morning and follows me to my bed each night. A stress which I did not create, nor did I invite it into my life, has gone from horrible intruder ...to ruthless dictator.

    What needs to change?
    What can change?
    The only answer that I can think of is - me.
    And I think changing me is doable.

    Hopefully that makes sense. emoticon
    Anyway, I think coming back to SP is a start. It sure feels like a good starting point. emoticon

    Lets stay in touch as much as time allows. I am ALWAYS glad to hear from you!
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    28 days ago
  • v JULIAMOONCHILD
    I have come to the conclusion ... no, must be honest here ... to the decision that you are my sister by a different Mother ....OK, and a different Father, too, .... but hey, no need to concern ourselves over small details.

    Anyway, YOU have been through one hell of a year! Like, O-U-C-H, OUCH, OUCH!!!
    I mean, enough is enough (suffering) already! Yet, there you are, still doing school, doing life, going to concerts and, seemingly, finding joy in the beauty that far too many of us miss out on.

    Thinking of things that I have missed out on for several many years now. TONS and TONS of things. Life is too short!

    Choices ...

    Sometimes we have more choices than we ever choose to take advantage of, yet, you impress upon me that you rarely do.

    Maybe you do ... at times, but somehow I think that most of YOUR choices are really thought-out ones and that you measure their merit, the affect they will have on your spiritual self as well as your mental and physical self, and you choose holistically. Does that even make sense??

    And maybe there are times when you knowingly choose what is not best for your over-all well-being, (like all of us here!), yet you always, always, always seem to be in pursuit of your optimal self.

    OK, I am saying this all very poorly, but .....am I too blame???
    No! No no, no!!!
    I mean, one of the sister's, (by different parents) got sent to Montreal and is doing great things with her life .... the other one, poor thing, got sent to West Virginia to be forever and three days just a lil' ol' hillbilly. emoticon

    We WILL stay in touch!!! emoticon




    28 days ago
  • v JULIAMOONCHILD
    Sending you good thoughts, my dear, dear friend.
    Crazy how often you are on my mind. Always wondering how you are doing and how things are going in your world.

    Still missing you a lot, here at SP (understatement!) - BUT - I know you will be back when the time is right for you. God, timing is everything, isn't it? .. And timing is such a personal thing. No one can know the journey we are on in our daily lives, internally and externally. And sometimes, at least for me, the internal workings of my mind have to be greased and oiled, so to speak, quite thoroughly before I am ready (to try) to commit myself to doing something different - Something I know I can do, but my mindset became a whole lot RUSTY over the past several many years.

    Anyway, wanting to sort myself out, which could take a lifetime, no doubt, but .........on the way to getting there, I'd rather be totally 'unsorted out' with someone like you. OK - YOU.

    No matter what your day has brought you - and I hope it has brought you an EXTRA fair share of joy, just know this, YOU are one awesome and amazingly wonderful gal.

    Missing you, but totally understanding that you will be here when you are here. emoticon


    28 days ago
  • v JULIAMOONCHILD
    My dear, dear friend,
    It has been so long since I have been here (God, life has been a nightmare!)-(still is, but, oh well) and I have missed you! I am not sure if you are still logging on, but when you do, and I just know that you will, please drop by and let me know you are here. You are one of those rare and oh so special people in this crazy world that makes my own turned-upside-down world feel as though there really is a chance in hell of setting it right again one day.
    Ohhh, I am not making much sense, but somehow I think you will understand my ramblings.

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    I hope we get to talk SOON.
    YOU ARE NEEDED. emoticon
    37 days ago
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