Up Close and Personal
My husband and I at our Wedding
Fletcher, Biggie and Karma
I am an emotional eater -- I eat when I am happy; I eat when I am sad; I eat when I am angry; I eat when I am bored....you get the idea. Another problem for me is that I LOVE food. I have yet to master the concept that you should Eat to Live not Live to Eat....but I am working on it. Also, I have really bad sleeping habits and my lack of routine affects my eating habits. I tend to wait to eat and then I binge and eat too much in one sitting. Ultimately, I am hoping that admitting all this will help me to accept and correct this behavior. *sheepish grins*
Robert Newton Anthony once said, "Most people would rather be miserable than risk being happy." I am trying my best in this life not to be one of those people.
I think the riskiest thing I have done was to move across the country in 2004, from Fort Worth, TX to Winnipeg, MB (Canada), but pursuing the love of my life has paid off and I have now been happily married since 2006. I met my husband in 2002 when I was 230 lbs. - not so good on my 5'6" frame. He met me at my heaviest weight and has supported me through both the losses - I lost 70 lbs. at one point - and the gains - I am now back up to 220 lbs.
I am very lucky that he loves me so much he claims to hardly notice the size of my jeans, but his unconditional love is part of the emotional comfort that I rely on to justify my unhealthy choices. That is not to say that he is to blame for my weakness....I know that only I can take responsibility for my psychologically and physically damaging rationale. I want to lose the weight for me, and I know that our relationship will only grow stronger if I can permanently succeed in obtaining a healthier lifestyle.
Another risky thing I've done was to quit my job as a design consultant which paid really good but was making me miserable. I went back to school and graduated in May 2004 with a BA in English from the University of Texas at Arlington. As soon as I finished, I packed up my life and moved to Canada where I immediately began coursework for my MA in English. I recently finished my thesis and officially graduated in Oct. 2008 from the University of Manitoba. I hope to be a successful writer of both fiction and non-fiction and I believe my education has provided me with the best tools to achieve this goal.
Now that I am done with school, my husband and I have decided to start a family. However, I'd like to reach a healthy weight before I get pregnant so the entire process is more comfortable for all parties involved - a healthier me equals a healthier baby, right?
I love to help people! My friends always joke that I am the mother/nurturer type of person. It's not that I'm altruistic; in fact, I literally derive pleasure from making others smile. So I guess you could say that my happiness often depends on the happiness of those around me.
I am currently employed as a Research Assistant for Graduate Students with Disabilities in the English Dept. at the U of Manitoba. I work closest with Vivi, a blind woman who has become one of my nearest and dearest friends.
When it comes to pets, I truly believe that rescued love is the best love! I think some people are best suited with specific breeds, and so I don't judge those of you with pure bred animals. But if you are looking for a companion and you have the time to scour a pet shelter, some of the best dogs and cats are waiting for your love! The reason I stress taking your time is because a successful adoption relies upon compatibility. If you take the time to find a good match, you and your new companion will have a long and happy life together!
I, myself, am the proud companion of two rescued dogs. A German Shepherd cross named Biggie whom I rescued in 2001 and a beautiful mutt named Karma whom my husband and I adopted in 2007 (all we know is she is a herding dog of some sort - maybe part Border Collie, Cattle Dog or Kelpie). I also had a rescued Miniature Schnauzer, Fletcher, who died on my birthday in 2007 after five and a half love-filled years.
Lose a total of 40 lbs. by Sept. 2009
Start Weight: 220 lbs.
Goal Weight: 180 lbs.
Lose a total of 60 lbs. by Sept. 2010
Start Weight: 180 lbs. (hopefully)
Goal Weight: 160 lbs.
Complete at least 30 mins. of exercise a day, 6 days per week
As of 10/10/08 I am consistently working out 3 days per week
Location: Winnipeg, Manitoba (Canada)
Hometown: Austin & Fort Worth, Texas
I hate it when people say, "You have such a beautiful face." They might as well just say, "you'd be really beautiful if you were thin." I know I am beautiful on the inside, but I'd love it if the outside was healthy and beautiful, too.
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