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So I lost 125 lbs over the course of a bit more than a year. Over the course of the last year or so I have gained back all but 20 lbs of it.
*le sigh*

To lose the weight I counted calories and exercised 6 days a week. As I approached my goal I wanted to find a more sustainable lifestyle. I failed. When I tried to relax my control and stop counting every calorie I ended up bingeing.

I went to therapy for the binge eating and am still going to a body wellness group therapy class that I find very helpful. Setting aside time to think about and appreciate the many stresses this world puts on our appearance and how that makes us feel. Knowing there are other people out there struggling with the same feelings.

I have struggled trying to find some middle ground way to find balance and have managed to gain back 100 lbs. I feel all the things that I rejoiced to get rid of coming back. The tiredness, unhappiness, heartburn, tendonitis in my hands. I have been wanting to get back on track, but not enough to chose not to get pizza and cookies, until now.

October 11, 2013 has marked my turning point. My BF thought I may have lost the weight too quickly last time and he may be right. I am starting back to tracking my food and counting my calories, but I am not going to obsess over it like I did before. I am allowing myself to relax and go over a bit on the weekends so I don't feel excluded from social gatherings. If I aim for a 1000 calorie deficit on weekdays and relax a bit on the weekends I should be able to balance out at a 1 lb weightloss per week which may be healthier for me. If I don't need to indulge on the weekend then maybe it will go a bit faster, but I am not going to pressure myself for it to do so.

I am confident that I can do this since I have done it before after all :) I feel the determination and commitment I felt before and that have been lacking over these past months. I am excited for what the future holds and for the journey I am starting again. I am not starting over completely and that is giving me a positive place to work from. I have a lot of knowledge already about what I need to do and what works for me, but I am still going to take it slowly introducing things. I am not going to go from 0 workout days to 6 a week overnight. I know this. I also know that I can do it again if I want to and I look forward to how great it felt being on a healthier path. I already am beginning to have that warm feeling even if it has only been a few days and it will only get better.

Member Since: 1/30/2008

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My Goals:
- Go from 315 to 175 lbs
- Exercise 3 days a week
- Need to buy new jeans because the old ones are too big
- Run a 5k

My Program:
- Aim for 1800 calories a day on week days
- Track food and ballpark calories on weekends but allow for indulgences
- 2 days of cardio during the week
- Saturday find an active fun thing to do

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    1840 days ago
    "Chocolate symbolizes, as does no other food, luxury, comfort, sensuality, gratification, and love."
    ― Karl Petzke

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    I'm soooo glad you're on the team! We're all together for support, for companionship, for laughter ... we're no longer on this journey alone! Team work, like chocolate, symbolizes soooooo many things! When you feel like you need a helping hand, drop by your Calorie Watchers 'R' Us team and get a boost. We're there for one another!

    Have a GREAT weekend,
    Cathy emoticon
    1847 days ago
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    Today .... Be all that you can be!! YOU are sooooo worth the effort!!!

    Cathy emoticon
    1856 days ago
    Today's weight loss tip:
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    And so will visiting your Calorie Watchers 'R' Us team! There is sooooo much emoticon support there!

    I'm soooooo glad you're part of the team!
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    1859 days ago
    Thanks! That is exactly where I am now. I have done so well for a year and lost a ton, but now I am looking for a way to make it more sustainable. Something that preferably doesn't require me to count calories for the rest of my life and doesn't involve binges. I have been going up in weight a bit now but I am trying to keep that in perspective of finding the right permanent healthy lifestyle for me :)
    1859 days ago
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