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270lbs in 2007 ~ Starting at this weight again in 2013, though I'm more fit at this point.



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~ It's my life, it's now or never ~

I'm starting over.

Is it still 'starting over' when you know so much more than you did five years ago?

Perhaps 'starting again' is more accurate.

I lost 80lbs between fall '07 and summer '08. After suffering through several years of multiple miscarriages, fertility treatments, and a husband that was an emotionally and mentally abusive prescription drug addict, the marriage collapsed. It was fall of '08, and we'd just moved across the country; when he ...
I'm starting over.

Is it still 'starting over' when you know so much more than you did five years ago?

Perhaps 'starting again' is more accurate.

I lost 80lbs between fall '07 and summer '08. After suffering through several years of multiple miscarriages, fertility treatments, and a husband that was an emotionally and mentally abusive prescription drug addict, the marriage collapsed. It was fall of '08, and we'd just moved across the country; when he left, I was alone. No friends, no family. Thus began four years of putting weight on and taking it back off. There were times when I looked good -- REALLY good. But I fought with the same 35lbs for several years, and then in 2012, put the rest back on too. I'm now at the same weight as when I began.

The upside: I've learned a lot about how my body works over the past five years. I've learned about which types of exercise I like (belly dance, Tai Chi, swimming, and Yoga Booty Ballet). I've learned a tremendous amount about nutrition. I have a closet full of beautiful clothes waiting for me.

The downside: I'm in my mid-thirties and have 100lbs to lose again. Time is racing by, and now it feels like it's really closing in. I'm sad that I let my ex-husband steal so many years from my life. I still have no living children (that's the time-sensitive part).

I have to make my life happen. I have to take back my power and my self-worth. I have to set myself up for success in the life that I desire.

After kicking the idea around for the past few months, I decided to go vegan again as a dietary style. I did it one-week-on, one-week-off between 2009 and 2010, and it was definitely my healthiest time of the past few years. Instead of alternating weeks though, this time I'll stay consistent with it, opening the door only on Fridays and Saturdays for non-vegan dietary choices (I need an egg and some cream in my coffee sometimes!).

January 1, 2013, I started my new plant-based dietary lifestyle. I'm going back to the Tai Chi center, and also working my way back to a full schedule at the dance studio. I'll start back with swimming after a few weeks of building my general endurance. YBB is something fun for toning, cardio, and strength. And walks on the beach are always a good thing.

I will "Choose Health" this year. Mind, body, and spirit. It's time to stop looking backwards; I'm not going that way. It's time to create myself, to create the body and life I want.

I am fortunate to have dance instructors that are extraordinarily talented and giving. I'm actually on track to earn a doctorate in chemistry, but I do love dancing and performing, so while I don't intend to become a professional belly dancer, I do intend to have dancing and performing as a part of my life forever. My dance community has become important. I have costumes in my closet, and many ideas in my head. I just need the body to go along with the mental image.

I want new people in my life. I have friends here now, friends that I love dearly. However, I'm WAY past ready to start dating again (casually!). I want to never have my weight hold me back again. I want my weight to STOP being the focus of my world. And the way to do that is to master my own fitness.

It's time. It's now or never.
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Member Since: 10/17/2009

SparkPoints: 22,635

Fitness Minutes: 31,227

My Goals:
Overall goal: 170-179lbs, with a normal BMI. Size 8.

My Program:
I am 5' 9" with mega-curves.

My Fitness: belly dancing, Tai Chi, swimming, walking on the beach, Yoga Booty Ballet, and horseback riding (when I get the chance).

My Diet: Plant-based ("dietary vegan"), except for Fridays and Saturdays.

Personal Information:
Tampa Bay area

Other Information:
I take vitamins, drink only water, and eat about 85% organic. I quit smoking September 2009.

I use Young Living Therapeutic Grade™ essential oils daily for health, healing, and to promote general wellness.

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BROOKLYN_BORN
1/22/2013 7:27:14 AM

thanks for your comment on my binge blog. "Out of body experience" describes me too.



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9/23/2011 4:24:41 PM

"GEMGODDESS had the best big breakfast ever today."
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9/2/2011 12:25:48 AM

Absolutely Love the LOL Cat Wisdom pictures! Congratulations on being today's motivator and for sharing your inspirational story!
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