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Hi, I am Sandra. When I became depressed and on medication for depression I gained almost 100lbs over a two year period. My weight impacts almost every aspect of my recovery from depression as well as my health. Now I live with chronic pain conditions caused, no doubt, by my weight. I also live with a self-imposed shame that is seems impossible to shake even though I know I am beautiful on the inside.

I have tried a few times to lose this weight with very little success usually ...
Hi, I am Sandra. When I became depressed and on medication for depression I gained almost 100lbs over a two year period. My weight impacts almost every aspect of my recovery from depression as well as my health. Now I live with chronic pain conditions caused, no doubt, by my weight. I also live with a self-imposed shame that is seems impossible to shake even though I know I am beautiful on the inside.

I have tried a few times to lose this weight with very little success usually caused by giving up a little bit at a time. An anniversary here, a birthday there, I will start fresh on Monday, etc. etc, until I just give up the commitment and fall back into comfort. Struggling with chronic pain also wears me out.

But I know that the weight is killing me and I know that it is keeping me from my life, from living and being around people. How can I not try again and again. This time, THIS time... this might be the time I finally lock in to real change. On THIS diet I will try harder than all the other times...

That is so easy to say.
It is so easy to believe... for a week.
It is so hard to do.

But what I CAN say, what I can know for sure is that TODAY I can do my best, today I will make different choices. Today I will try hard and nail it.

Today I choose to be the future me I deserve to be.

Can you relate?
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My Goals:
My goal is to lose 40lbs by August 2. I need to lose way more than that but I wanted to set myself up an attainable milestone. In the process I want to learn to eat better and become accustomed to getting more physical activity.

Looks used to dominate my reason to lose weight but now, as I am having a harder and harder time carrying my weight and am hurting all the time - it is health that is truly driving me to change.

My Program:
I am starting off by following the two week Atkins induction program ... not because I plan to be an Atkins dieter going forward but because I want to get off carbs and change up my metabolism. It is also a good way of removing common food allergens and seeing if you feel better.

At the end of the two week induction I will reintroduce only healthy carbs one at a time until I have a healthy, balanced, whole foods diet.

This is combined with developing a lifestyle of moderate exercise for 30 mins, six times a week that includes walking and stretching, some swimming and some strength work.

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I am an artist and a poet living in the beautiful Santa Cruz, CA - where the redwoods meet the sea. I am an marketing assistant at a local School of Art. I have been writing and doing artwork for over twenty years but you never quit learning.

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I am so open to making friends here. I believe there is strength in numbers!

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LUCY8751
11/4/2013 11:00:51 AM

Dear Sandra,
I lost 35kg on spark people last year-I dont know what that is in lbs but Im down 4 dress sizes, you can do it XXX LuCy emoticon



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CHANJEN348
10/19/2013 4:34:45 AM

Hope all is well with you and your journey! emoticon



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IUHRYTR
10/7/2013 4:29:43 PM

emoticon for joining the "Writers' Support Group" team. I wish you much success with your weight loss. Take things one healthy meal, one exercise, one positive day at a time and always believe in yourself that you can do this, one pound at a time. emoticon -- Lou



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SHERRY666
10/7/2013 1:06:27 PM

HELLO SANDRA.......... WELCOME TO PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES...... IT'S GREAT TO HAVE YOU WITH US....... COME ON BY AND CHECK OUT OUR MONTHY CHAT OR CHALLENGE....... LOTS OF SUPPORT AND YOU WILL MEET SOME WONDERFUL INSPIRING PEOPLE........ BEST OF LUCK ON YOUR JOURNEY.... I HOPE WE WILL BE SEEING MORE OF YOU AND GETTING TO KNOW YOU BETTER.

SHERRE... TEAM LEADER. emoticon



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10/7/2013 10:06:22 AM

Welcome back to Spark!!

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