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Finding myself
My goal is to lose 135 lbs. It is a huge goal but I know that it is still just one pound at a time. I am a nurturer who has put others before myself and this is the end result. My children are now all grown and it is time for me to rediscover who I am and set new goals. Gaining my health will make the most positive impact on the rest of my life.
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Above is what I originally wrote but I decided that as part of truly finding myself, I need to be ...
My goal is to lose 135 lbs. It is a huge goal but I know that it is still just one pound at a time. I am a nurturer who has put others before myself and this is the end result. My children are now all grown and it is time for me to rediscover who I am and set new goals. Gaining my health will make the most positive impact on the rest of my life.
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Above is what I originally wrote but I decided that as part of truly finding myself, I need to be even more honest and a little more vulnerable. So here is the rest of the story.
I have been overweight as far back as I can remember. I can remember my father complaining when buying me clothes and my mom saying we had to get my clothing from the "husky" section. As I got older I remember the jokes and slights at my expense from my parents and my siblings. It is amazing that I was not more traumatized than I am. I always just felt a little embarassed by being overweight as though I were somehow being a burden to others. My defense was to create a new persona so I became the "smart one." Making good grades got me noticed for something other than my size. I also got quite a thick skin and all my reading and studying helped me to be able to give a good verbal butt whooping to folks who tried to put me down. But the hurt was there, being stuffed deeper and deeper with emotional eating.
The funny thing is that when I got to be about 16 some of that fat turned to curves and I finally got some positive attention LOL. But well there are curves and then there are CURVES. And I long for my former curves. After many years of emotional eating, now I have more what I would call bumps and lumps. So I want the good curves back now. And that is what my screen name is all about. :-)
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Member Since: 2/28/2012
SparkPoints: 4,423
Fitness Minutes: 1,258
My Goals:
Lose 135 lbs
Exercise 30 mins/4 x per week
Stay within my calorie range daily.
My Program:
Tracking my food intake religiously.
Joining challenges.
Personal Information:
I live in Texas. I am a mother to 3 grown (smiling) children.
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