me and my love: 25 weeks pregnant with #1
wow... another year has gone by. I'm a mom now. That was unexpected! What is even more unexpected is that I am still healthy. I spent all of 2013 working towards a healthy pregnancy. And here I am starting 2014 with a beautiful 10 week old son and a body that is almost back to where it was before with the addition of added strength knowing I raised a kid in there and brought him into the world. I am healthy. I am happy. And I am still working towards my goals. 2014 will mark 5 years of living a healthy lifestyle and I intend to make this year the best of them so far.
Happy New Year everyone!
This time of year we often look towards the next year and our list of "new year's resolutions". We look at ways we can FIX out old selves. This year, I am embracing my old self by choosing to put the past in the past. I'm done working towards my old goals. I am no longer 100lbs overweight. I am 20-30lbs from GOAL. I am no longer unhealthy, unfit, unhappy. I am striving, working, succeeding, and re-challenging myself towards the prize. FIT is a lifestyle. and I will never go back to who I used to be....
September 2009: I began the weight loss journey. Starting weight: 251lbs. Prior Heaviest Weight: 265 (2005). Goal weight: 150. Between 2009-2011, I lost 80lbs. My main goal was to create a healthy lifestyle: one that could influence my family, friends, and future. I changed habits- ate better, slept more, prayed more, moved more. I fell in love with what HEALTH could do for me.
WHO I WAS:
I had always been a heavy person...my lowest weight in memory was 157lbs at the age of 10. In my family, food was savored and enjoyed. The process of growing, tending, harvesting, butchering, wrapping, and packing was a family affair that encouraged togetherness and the counting of blessings. Most of my cherished memories are centered around people and the wonderful food I associate with them- granny Fran's pancakes, mamma's apple pie...As a child, I was encouraged to clear my plate, try everything, and eat up. My after school snacks would often be a box of cereal, a bag of popcorn, or a bowl of cookie dough. I blamed my obesity on genetics and quickly learned to become the fat-funny friend. I was never extremely UNHAPPY, however, I always knew something was missing.
After being mugged in 2008, I fell into a deep depression. I had difficulty moving, let alone exercising. I burrowed so deep into my emotions, and allowed food to comfort me.
August 2009 I transferred to a new college. I just remember waking up and being tired of who I was. Unhappy, growing larger by the week, and lost to any sense of my personal being. It was time to change.
April 2012 I got divorced. It wasn't the typical messy divorce, but more of a letting go. Letting go of the past, letting go of the unhealthy. Giving myself the chance to truly move on with life.
March 2013: I found out I was pregnant. Unexpected. Another life journey twist.
November 2013 I became a mom. A beautiful son, Elijah James is now the most important person in my world. It is for him that I strive towards health. It is for him that I will be fit, strong, and happy.
WHO I AM NOW:
It's been over 4 years since I started my journey. And I'm happy to say I've maintained this healthy lifestyle since then. It is part of me. However, this is not enough. I still have goals, still have challenges, and still want to succeed. It is time to put behind me the "fat funny girl", the "overweight", the "100lbs to lose". it is time to embrace this me: the healthy but still training, the 20lbs goal, the eat clean for health me.
WHO I WILL BE:
I will focus on life. I will set new goals: lose 20lbs, hike the long trail, run the 5k, go to graduate school, eat paleo, laugh with my son, live STRONG, live LONG.
I want to LIVE. Life is worth living and should be full and beautiful! I am ready to embrace LIFE to the fullest and see what I can see. I am ready to create CHANGE: become STRONG: and FIND MYSELF
1. Find a new job
2. run a 5k
3. hike Taum Sauk Mt
4. line dance
5. Pay off at least 1 student loan
6. Finally reach my goal weight of 150-155
Meal planning is a MUST
Exercise is a MUST
Giving it my all- every single day is a MUST
Rewarding myself along the way is a MUST
LOVING MYSELF ALONG THE WAY: MUST
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smell of diesel and harvest
Jodi Picoult books
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONE GIRL!!
566 days ago
Happy Belated Birthday Done Girl!
567 days ago
Happy Birthday, DONE GIRL
Like the other water signs, this sign is very sensitive and emotional. With Scorpio, unlike the water signs Cancer and Pisces, the emotions remain under rigid control. They may not even be apparent to those who are very close to you. When your emotions do erupt, they do so very violently, often with a strong burst of sarcasm and vindictiveness.
The Scorpio woman is most often the "breadwinner" in the family, even supporting other relatives.
The Scorpio child is born to a father who didn't want a child for whatever reason, and even though this isn't even talked about in the family, the child picks up on this and learns to not trust others. Scorpio always asks "What do they want from me" or "What is in this for me." Because of this, Scorpio is insecure and must be in control in any relationship they are in.
The strength of Scorpio is in the methods employed to meet every challenge. You approach everything with intensity and passion. Nothing is ever halfway because you put everything you have in your work; mind, heart, soul. You are one of those people who always gives 100% and sometimes more. Many born under the sign Scorpio become classic workaholics.
You may have an undesirable trait commonly found in the Scorpio person, holding a grudge for a very long time. The underside of Scorpio is often possessed with uncontrollable jealousies and the strongest passions. When offended the reaction is surely revenge. The higher side of Scorpio still dominates people and situations, but with much for the common good. This sign produces very few lukewarm people. You are either very bad or very good.
In Scorpio, the Sun is intense, skeptical and secretive. There is an intensity and a secretiveness in your makeup which results in an inscrutable persona most people cannot penetrate. This trait makes the Scorpio personality hard to detect. You like to remain incognito, and do so with your very secretive nature. You are a master at hiding your emotions. You neither flinch nor blush. It's hard for you to share your inner feelings with anyone.
You can be very critical and demanding, creating a forceful and dominating demeanor. You are strong-willed and determined, and you usually act with incisiveness. Your critical nature allows you to make shrewd and unusually accurate judgments at a rapid rate. You can penetrate the hidden agenda of those you meet. It is in your nature to protect yourself by knowing what your opponents are thinking and doing. You have uncanny intuition and accurate perceptions, making you almost psychic in understanding and making emotional connections with other people. Very few successfully earn your trust. Often, you experience difficulties with the authority figures in your life.
At home, you may be something of a tyrant, wanting everything done your way. You think you are always right and won't tolerate dissent. There is a tendency for you to impose your will on friends and family since you feel so passionately that your ideas are in their best interest. No one takes relationships more serious than you. Although you are highly attracted to, and attractive to, the opposite sex, in many respects you function well as a 'lone wolf' type.
Scorpio gets along with Cancer, Pisces, Virgo, Capricorn and Taurus. They should avoid Libra and Sagittarius, who are both outgoing people that would make Scorpio very jealous. Scorpio health issues involved problems with fertility & the reproductive organs. They can also have problems with the throat including the thyroid.
567 days ago
Happy Belated Birthday DONE girl! I hope you had an awesome day!!!
568 days ago
Happy Birthday DONE girl!!
568 days ago