Cruise June 2012
April 24th 2015
Still around and still fat, made it over 200 this time around. I am starting to see daylight finally after a long and terrible bout with depression. I considered suicide more than once this time around. It was rough.
Get down to the bottom and you will find out who your true supporters are, they are few and precious, mainly family. If not for my baby girl, I'd be dead, no question. Thank you for my life baby girl.
Once again I embark on a get healthy journey. Let's do this!
October 25th 2013- Still depressed and still fat - but determined. I am going to try again - I must - I'm losing my health insurance January 1st - priced out of my reach. This means most of meds are priced out of my reach also. Sincerely hoping 30 pounds will lower my BP and cholesterol enough to matter.
August 1st 2013 - Still Here - Still Fat!
I'm jumping back on the weight loss wagon today after a couple months off. When my depression deepens to a certain point - dieting is impossible. I have managed to struggle past the debilitating stage so here I am. Online buddies don't work for me - they just don't feel real - so I am relying on my daughters and my friends to help me keep on track.
April 19 2013 - My plans have changed. I aim to eat much cleaner than I was. Fruits and vegetables are to be my base followed by whole grains, beans, and dairy. Fish and chicken are next with red meat, anything processed and sweets last. I aim to get some exercise every day in addition to getting in at least 5000 steps with pedometer.
I intend to prove my doctor wrong and ditch these meds - especially the cholesterol ones. They are a nightmare.
March 1st 2013 and still fat.
This time I am doing this MY way. I am going to concentrate on losing weight THEN on changing my habits. Trying to do both has not worked for me - ever. My doctor informed me this past week that I will never get rid of my meds - never - regardless of weight loss. She did say I would feel better and live longer with regular exercise and says she has many "heavy" clients that exercise regularly and are fit. Heavy as in overweight not obese so I do need to lose some weight. Let's face it I will never be able to maintain 130 again. So I am shooting for 150 and REGULAR exercise and DECENT eating habits.
I am a repeat drop out of Weight Watchers and SparkPeople. I have no luck finding buddies - online or in person. So I am on my own. I quit smoking in 2008 - I was scared to death but it turned out to be much easier than I expected (not easy - just easier). Of course, you can toss them cigarettes out the door, clean the smell away, toss them ash trays and tough it out. I can't throw out food, eliminate the smell, or wait out hungry until it dissolves without dire consequences! Duh!
My relationship with food is tough. I love carbs - all kinds - good ones and bad ones - refined and unrefined. Food is my go to when I am mad, sad, tired, etc. I have been one or the other or all three much of the last 5 years or so. I have battled and am still battling a crippling depression. I have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, ridiculously high triglycerides and a huge tummy along with borderline high sugar - metabolic syndrome. I have got to figure this out and get healthy before my health deteriorates further. I want to enjoy my life not spend it being sick and tired of being sick and tired.
My weight goal is 150.
My primary goal is to be "healthy".
I want to live a long and happy life. To be able to travel after I retire.
To be able to play with my grandchildren and live to hold my great-grandchildren.
Concentrating on losing weight by eating a low calorie diet and exercise.
Walk for a minimum of 15 minutes per day - every day.
Simple strength exercises 3 days a week.
Eat more vegetables and fruit.
I am from Raleigh, NC.
I am 56 years old.
I have 4 children and 3 grandchildren.
I work as an accountant. It pays the bills. Working on optimism.
I love to read, go to movies and plays, visit zoos and museums, travel, take cruises, and play computer games.
| current weight: 194.0